Understanding Without Choice

Why is it that a person seeks to gain, to accumulate? Does accumulation lead to any significant understanding or realization? To be acquisitive in either the material or the psychological is to acknowledge the deprivation of the self. The self that is the movement of thought as time is the conduit for the disintegration of the oneness of existence. It is the illusion of the duality of all that stands in opposition. One accumulates information, experience in an attempt to know, but that very activity is the alienation of what is the truth of the moment. One cannot realize truth because one is caught in the movement of self as an acquiring identity. As one becomes more aligned and identified with the minds accumulations, the less one can realize the true self. Those who have many psychological and material accumulations are deeply entrenched in the illusion of the self absorbed. That is why it is necessary for one to be constantly dying to the moment, so that one does not accumulate. One is reborn from moment to moment. That rebirth is the illumination of the true self, that which is without identity and attachment. It is a state of timelessness that is freedom from knowing, from accumulation.


Freedom from the known means that one is no longer caught in the illusion of self, of an identity that is concluding based on accumulation. Is it possible for one to see this very moment to be completely aware of the entity that is concluding, judging and choosing. If one can in the moment have a realization of the movement of that entity, which is the separated self, then it may be possible for something new to happen. One may be experiencing the dissipation of that entity and the illumination of the true self which is the beginning of intelligence that is not the result of time. Dissipation does not mean annihilation of the self, it means understanding, the outcome of which is freedom from the known. The known is the identity and attachment of the self. It is the definition of self, the named. One may realize that it is not possible for the defined self to become illuminated or enlightened. If one has realized the true self then these words have no meaning, they only have meaning to those who are caught in the illusion of self.

If one is caught in the ideals of choice then one is deceived by the self that is divided. To choose is to be unaware of the movement of the self which is seeking identity and thus alienation. Fear is the root cause of all alienation. It is the fear of not having identity of not belonging. Mind seeks continuity through thoughts creation of the self. Mind creates fear as the driving force behind the separation and division of the self. The self constantly needs to be identified with its experience in order to become, to continue as an entity which has the ability to choose. It is the conflict and violence of the separative. J.K. has often spoke of choiceless awareness and one can see that it is this meditation that can allow one to realize the subtlety of thoughts movement as the separated.


If there is consciousness of the unconditioned then one may have a deep understanding of self that does not seek resolution as choice. But rather one sees directly the origin of all motivations that are the creation of the mind that is in conflict. One has direct insight into thoughts movement as time. Understanding without choice is to arrest all movement that is the duality of a mind that is in opposition. When one ceases the activity of choosing then there is the peace of the absolute moment which cannot be disturbed because it is not a projected creation of thought. It is the timeless illumination of the true self.

Nirvana

Is there an experience referred to as Nirvana? Is it viewed as an attainment of the higher self? Buddha has referred to Nirvana as consciousness of the unconditioned. Yet it must be understood that if one views Nirvana as an accomplishment, then it is only a projection of belief which is desire. It is an illusion of the self absorbed to seek out a Nirvanic experience. The conditioned mind seeks and what it seeks is a formulation of the content of that conditioning. There must first be a realization of freedom that is the negation of all that is self motivation. Whatever is born of the self is the self. The unconditioned is the outcome of the dissipation of the self which is formulating and concluding. The key is understanding that is not the result of thoughts desire to become. Whatever one does to create a cause and effect relationship will only further the image of self and will do nothing to enhance ones realization of the true self (Buddha Nature).

Mind complicates and confuses what is the simplicity of freedom. One must be vulnerable to life so that the flower of the unknown can offer its fragrance as the realization of the unconditioned.
The mind that is consumed with the angst of tomorrow as the projection of yesterday can never realize the peace of the absolute moment. The conditioned mind is yesterday with all its accumulated opinions and conclusions. It can only project because it is caught in the movement of time as the self which is seeking. What it seeks is its own creation, the phantom of a mind that dwells within the conflict of the known.

Nirvana as definition as a state of mind or of the mindless is the folly of the self absorbed. One can only negate and in that negation is the realization of freedom. Freedom sets the stage for that which cannot be sought out, that is not the result of meditation or any other systematic formulation. Whatever you seek will not be Nirvana but only the content of your own mind. It cannot be named or become an experience. It is only in the absolute moment when all else is not. It is when the self is not. It is all that there is, all else is the illusion of the self as thoughts continuity.

Understanding Duality

What is duality? The mind seeks continuity as the entity that is thought. That continuity is the self as the movement of thought, which is time. That separated individuality is the duality of the self which is projecting its dual nature. But it is much deeper than that. Because thought its self is duality all that is accumulated is conceptualized as having a dual nature. Thought as the self projects its duality into all of its derived concepts. All that is not the self stands in opposition as the reality of the projected. All opposition is viewed as a defined position. Position exist as the duality of opposition. When one defines, assigns a meaning or value, one creates duality. As one accumulates knowledge that knowledge is utilized to strengthen the polarizing effects of duality. So all concepts have an opposite or dual nature. Things are defined as black or white or in shades of gray. Thought as the separated self which is seeking continuity, creates conceptual duality in all experiences. Duality is the perception of choice. The illusion of the ability to determine the future through choices. It is the projection of the duality of self as time.

Can a person escape the duality of a mind that is creating the conflict of opposition? One should realize that it is not possible to escape or change the self. There is no such thing as transformation of the self. The self is the product of the movement of thought as time. The self remains forever what it is, the illusion of thought as the continuity of what was. There is only the understanding of what is and through that understanding there is the dissipation of self which is the origin of duality. Dissipation does not mean that you are experiencing Nirvana, it means that you have realized the true self. Nirvana is a concept that is bandied about as some sort of ecstatic state of joy and knowing. Its all B.S. , forget Nirvana for the moment and realize the true self that exist only in the absolute moment. The dissipation of self is not an end to a means it is the simply the natural outcome of a mind that is free of all the illusions of the self created. Within that freedom is understanding of the timeless, that which has no beginning and no end.

Why Negation?

One exist as the duality of self. It is the product of experience as conditioning. As a conditioned consciousness one is embroiled in the activity of position and opposition. The ego self is a positional intellect. The self clings to ideals that create the need for opinion and conclusion. If one is attached psychologically to an ideal then it becomes necessary to defend and support a position. Because one is grounded in the duality of the separated there is always a corresponding opposition. This is the origin of the all conflict. The self as a separated individuality is always seeking identification in the accumulation of knowledge. That knowledge becomes definition as the concept of what is. The conceptual is the psychological illusion of the self. Negation is the realization of the illusion of the conceptual. Negation as realization has no opposite. It is when thought has realized its own movement as that which is the illusion of time.

To realize the moment as the only reality is to negate the illusion of the self as the entity which concludes. The dissipation of the conceptual is the realization of the actual. The self being the conceptual is negated and with it all duality is resolved as that which is the projection of the self. Now it is possible to see directly the truth of the moment. Truth cannot become the "known", it can only be realized through the negation of what it is not. The duality of the self which is positional thought can only know the illusion of self projection...that is the self as the idea of truth. All ideals must be negated to realize truth that is without definition and duality.

Do not fall into the trap of thinking that negation is related to negativity as the opposite of affirmation. Negation is the absence of the self that is choosing, discriminating, and adjudicating. It is not the result of thought which is seeking resolution in what is known. Negation is the outcome of spontaneous realization, illumination into the origin of the separated. The truth of the absolute moment is reflected in the relationship of what is, as the integration of the selfless. It is the end of polarization and the beginning of intelligence that is beyond the known.

Beyond the Named and Identified

The living, thinking being that is the exertion of self is not true reality. The accumulated experience that is the consciousness of existence is the illusion of the self created. What you may think that you are is not what you actually are. Life is lived as that which is seeking an end to a means. One lives in the bondage of the projected reality of the illusion of self. Samsara is living in the conflict and violence of the perception of the separated. One is divided within and one projects that division as conclusion, judgement, and discrimination. Psychologically one is disconnected and without a sense of integration. This is the life that one leads, that everyone leads. It is the human condition, conditioning, which is the result of the desire to become, to be identified. The named, the separated, the one who seeks advantage for the promotion of self interest. Can one in this very moment, have a profound realization, can one see through all the justification and look at the truth of what one actually is? It is possible to have a direct realization of that which is beyond thought. To be aware of the moment and the movement of thought that attempts to pre-empt the true self, ones Buddha Nature. Awareness is all that is needed, a timeless state of not knowing, in which the mind is quiet. In that stillness is the reflection of true reality, the realization of that which is beyond all comprehension.


So you are not who you think you are. You are not the dreamt of, or the sought after. You are not a collection of experiences that formulate an individuality. All this is the superficial, that which has no real meaning. True reality is not the defined, it is devoid of definition. Definition is the expressed limitation of thought. When mind is quiet, there is no limitation. The consciousness of the unconditioned is the realization of understanding that has no origin. It is without a beginning or an end. It is without movement or direction. It is the absolute moment which reveals the truth of what is. As long as one is obsessed with the self, with illusion, one will not see the actuality of the moment. All is veiled by the self that is seeking resolution in what was. Freedom, which is without the endless chattering of vague definition and assumptive projection.

If one can come to a place which is not of time and find through negation, a freedom that is not of the known, then it is possible to live a life that is without the conflict and confusion of the self absorbed. To have an understanding that is devoid of reference and repetition. Understanding that is of the moment and that is without attachment. To live that quality of anonymity that is the total understanding and convergence of existence.

"Buddha Nature" the Timeless

This writer has mentioned time in many blog articles on this site. Its understanding in the context of the self as that which projects the conceptual is key to realizing the freedom of the moment. There is no need for scientific speculation or a formulated theory. When there is insight into the origin of thought as time, then there is a dissipation of that which is seeking a result. One may meditate upon the idea of time and its relationship to the self, but the ideal is only a compilation of the known. The known can never fathom the unknown. One must leave the ideal as the passion of knowing behind.

Because time is the product of the movement of thought one is caught in the past as the projection of the present and the future. The mind sees and comprehends according to projected images that are part of the conditioned consciousness. One escapes into the memories of past experience in order to understand the present and to project the future. If there is meditation that relies on a systematic teaching, then one is caught in the limitation of that system or belief. Though one may try and escape the boundaries of this limitation, it cannot be realized because mind is caught in the origin of a time based precept.

Freedom is the key to understanding that is not of time. Psychological freedom that is not the result of an activity of self. It is a spontaneous realization from moment to moment. It cannot be a concept to be held onto, something to be studied and applied as a mental exercise. Freedom is the outcome of a realization of the illusion of time/thought. This realization is the illumination of the true self, what has been characterized as "Buddha Nature".

"Buddha Nature", the true self, is not something that you become. It is the realization of the origin of what one is in the absolute moment. It is the new and never before from moment to moment. It is devoid of the repetition of the known. It is the consciousness of the unconditioned. One lives in a timeless state of the reality of the moment. One has understanding that transcends the self created. It is the joy and freedom of an existence that is not caught in the conflict and violence of time.

Escape Formulations

Why does the self formulate the ideal? Are we avoiding reality? Is it a type of escapism? One gets bogged down by the pressures and demands of daily living. One desires a respite from the conflict and confusion of existence. Because we think in terms of conflict, of confrontation in our relationships, we seek avoidance if at all possible. The mind dwells in ideals, in the projected image of probable results. One does everything possible to avoid pain and promote what is perceived as favorable. But is the avoidance of pain and the seeking of the pleasurable polar opposites. Does not one define the other, are they not two sides of the same coin. Is there pain or pleasure in the absolute moment. The reality of what is contains neither. It is only a product of the mind that is projecting the fear of having or not having. Because one is grounded in desire one creates the duality of psychological pain and pleasure.

One is unable to understand the simplicity of what is, that which is the absolute moment. When there is realization of the true self, then there is a dissipation of the duality of the known. One has understanding that is without polarity. The moment is neither good nor bad, right nor wrong. Because one is not seeking a result, one accepts what is, and lives it totally. There is no escape, no formula for the projection of what should be. One is the timeless, that which cannot be touched. There is an absence of cause and effect as the result of action and reaction.

All thought is mathematically linear. One is seeking the logic of equality. To think in terms of equation is to discover only physical relevancy and to attempt to define through the conceptual. The reality of the unknown cannot be quantified or conceptualized. It is when the mind is silent not moving, the meditation of the timeless. One ceases the activity of the formulated of that which seeks escape. In the space between two words one finds the peace and freedom of the unknown.

Expectation

Why do we desire? What is it that drives us to expect results from effort? We naturally assume that what we do and say has a consequence. One is searching for definition through identity with that which is the result of action. Thoughts are linear and logical therefore life should be an equality of input and output. But it is obviously not so, at least to the self absorbed. Desire overrides any attempt at understanding that is not born of the self that is expecting a result. The understanding of truth is not a preconceived notion that has been planted in the mind. It is not the result of any belief system or individual accomplishment. When there is no expectation there is love and the understanding of the moment.

If one expects then there is condition. Conditional thinking is the ultimate expression of the desire for self promotion and identification. One may think and may have been told that it is healthy to have a sense of self that includes the fruition of ones desires. But what is the actual truth of the moment in which ones desires are realized. Is there peace of mind? Does one feel fulfilled? Has one realized a serenity that cannot be violated? The mind that is seeking and expecting cannot hope to realize that which is beyond all comprehension. Whatever is the expression of the self is the self. One must negate all that is the projection of mind. In the stillness of the absolute moment when there is no movement of time, there is the peace and serenity of the unknown. From this emptiness comes understanding that is not a result and has nothing to do with thought. It is not of time, it is the acceptance of what is. One is vulnerable to the moment as such one is devoid of any sense of self. It is the selflessness of the unconditioned, that which has no expectation and nothing to promote.

Expectation sets one up for the conflict of desire and belief. Conflict that becomes a festering sore that seeks both appeasement and retribution. The ego/self is always in a state of expecting as a result of ones reaction to and escape from the truth of the moment. To look directly at the moment without that which is concluding and judging is realize the true self. But the truth is veiled by the accumulated and sought after. One lives in the illusion of what was and one is consumed with the emotion of the self, which one views as the victim of numerous transgressions. The defined is seeking a confirmation of perceived identity through further attachment to idea and possession. But one only finds the frustration of the temporal. If one can through non-attachment, understand the origin of expectation, then it may be possible for one to realize a peace that is not of time.

Allegorical Illusion

An allegory is a symbolic story or idea that represents a perceived reality. Life is lived symbolically. That is one associates and identifies with that which creates an underlying continuity of solidarity. All religions are allegorical in the sense that they create a bridge that connects past, present and future. Self which is the projected image of thought is the allegorical result of belief. It is the self created illusion of that which is caught in time. If one can see that ones consciousness is a conditioned allegory of time then it is possible to have a realization that transcends the ideological.

How does one find that which has no symbol or definition? How is it possible to realize something that is beyond thought and time? If one can be aware in each moment that there is only the illusion of the self absorbed, projecting desire, then one may reach a point in the absolute moment when there is no movement. In that moment one may see directly the truth of that which is without symbol or definition. It is the realization of the true self. The selflessness of the moment which is absent all projection. As has been previously said words and definitions are the illusion of symbol. They are the allegory of what has been. To live in allegory is to live in the illusion of what was. It is the conflict and confusion of the self projected.

To realize that the defined ideal is the illusion of self, is to come upon freedom that is not freedom from something. It is the freedom of the reality of the absolute moment. The falling away of the self created image of what was and what will be. Freedom is living in the unknown. It is the dissipation of all polarity. Energy that has no agenda, that is the pure joy of living in the simplicity of what is.

The State of Not Knowing

Is it possible to live the moment totally? That is can a person realize that which is of self as the product of thought in each moment? It is difficult to be in a state of awareness that is the outcome of understanding from moment to moment. Because the mind is caught in time, in its movement as past, present and future, the self exerts identity as the one who concludes and chooses. When there is identification there is attachment and position, which culminates in the authority of self. If there is frequency of awareness as the timeless, then it is possible to realize a level of consciousness that is not the result of ones conditioning. That consciousness increases as one develops a selfless state of not knowing. It is as though one sees into the very nature and origin of human motivation, down to the very core of all that is reaction and result.

Awareness is just a word. If mind plays with it as the conceptual then it will have no real meaning. It will just be an intellectual game of one upmanship. One may realize that the conceptual is just the minds way of trying to find identification and security in what is being said or written. As long as the mind is seeking to understand on a superficial level, that is to satisfy the perceived needs and wants of self, then one will not realize the true self. Consciousness that is not conditioned is the outcome of awareness that has a meditative quality of non-movement. A stillness of mind that allows an insight and understanding into the moment that is not of the past, of memory. A totally new realization that is not a result, but the outcome of a consciousness that sees directly, without the "predisposition" of the accumulated self.

If one can realize this consciousness that is new in each and every moment, then one will live a life of total freedom. A life that is absent the conflict and fear of the experience of the known. Then one will cease the activity of projecting ones insecurities and fears into the moment. It is living in the space between two words, in the joy and freedom of the unknown.