Expectation

Why do we desire? What is it that drives us to expect results from effort? We naturally assume that what we do and say has a consequence. One is searching for definition through identity with that which is the result of action. Thoughts are linear and logical therefore life should be an equality of input and output. But it is obviously not so, at least to the self absorbed. Desire overrides any attempt at understanding that is not born of the self that is expecting a result. The understanding of truth is not a preconceived notion that has been planted in the mind. It is not the result of any belief system or individual accomplishment. When there is no expectation there is love and the understanding of the moment.

If one expects then there is condition. Conditional thinking is the ultimate expression of the desire for self promotion and identification. One may think and may have been told that it is healthy to have a sense of self that includes the fruition of ones desires. But what is the actual truth of the moment in which ones desires are realized. Is there peace of mind? Does one feel fulfilled? Has one realized a serenity that cannot be violated? The mind that is seeking and expecting cannot hope to realize that which is beyond all comprehension. Whatever is the expression of the self is the self. One must negate all that is the projection of mind. In the stillness of the absolute moment when there is no movement of time, there is the peace and serenity of the unknown. From this emptiness comes understanding that is not a result and has nothing to do with thought. It is not of time, it is the acceptance of what is. One is vulnerable to the moment as such one is devoid of any sense of self. It is the selflessness of the unconditioned, that which has no expectation and nothing to promote.

Expectation sets one up for the conflict of desire and belief. Conflict that becomes a festering sore that seeks both appeasement and retribution. The ego/self is always in a state of expecting as a result of ones reaction to and escape from the truth of the moment. To look directly at the moment without that which is concluding and judging is realize the true self. But the truth is veiled by the accumulated and sought after. One lives in the illusion of what was and one is consumed with the emotion of the self, which one views as the victim of numerous transgressions. The defined is seeking a confirmation of perceived identity through further attachment to idea and possession. But one only finds the frustration of the temporal. If one can through non-attachment, understand the origin of expectation, then it may be possible for one to realize a peace that is not of time.