The State of Not Knowing

Is it possible to live the moment totally? That is can a person realize that which is of self as the product of thought in each moment? It is difficult to be in a state of awareness that is the outcome of understanding from moment to moment. Because the mind is caught in time, in its movement as past, present and future, the self exerts identity as the one who concludes and chooses. When there is identification there is attachment and position, which culminates in the authority of self. If there is frequency of awareness as the timeless, then it is possible to realize a level of consciousness that is not the result of ones conditioning. That consciousness increases as one develops a selfless state of not knowing. It is as though one sees into the very nature and origin of human motivation, down to the very core of all that is reaction and result.

Awareness is just a word. If mind plays with it as the conceptual then it will have no real meaning. It will just be an intellectual game of one upmanship. One may realize that the conceptual is just the minds way of trying to find identification and security in what is being said or written. As long as the mind is seeking to understand on a superficial level, that is to satisfy the perceived needs and wants of self, then one will not realize the true self. Consciousness that is not conditioned is the outcome of awareness that has a meditative quality of non-movement. A stillness of mind that allows an insight and understanding into the moment that is not of the past, of memory. A totally new realization that is not a result, but the outcome of a consciousness that sees directly, without the "predisposition" of the accumulated self.

If one can realize this consciousness that is new in each and every moment, then one will live a life of total freedom. A life that is absent the conflict and fear of the experience of the known. Then one will cease the activity of projecting ones insecurities and fears into the moment. It is living in the space between two words, in the joy and freedom of the unknown.