The Depth of Our Conditioning

The depths of a persons conditioning is so strong that it is second nature in terms of response and emotion. It is so very difficult to break away from the fear that is created by the conditioned mind. Whatever one does to understand by way of thought only strengthens the self that is a product of its own conditioning. Even though we understand conceptually, the minds fears and conflicts, it is difficult to realize in the moment the extent to which we are controlled by the whole field of thought manipulation. Even though we are aware of the process, if one does not allow the freedom of the moment to negate self illusion, we cannot realize understanding that is not part of this process of opinion and conclusion. We are psychologically despotic when it comes to the true reality of the moment. The authority of the self that knows creates conflict that is the result of ones conditioned thought process. To realize the subtlety of this dynamic is to come upon the possibility of negation, freedom that is the outcome of a consciousness that has realized beyond its conditioning.

All that a person can do, as I have said many times, is be aware. But that awareness must have a quality of disconnectedness. You have to be aware of the movement of the self as a conditioned entity. But that awareness must not judge or choose, for then it becomes an escape. When you see and realize in the moment that what you observe is in fact the one who observes, then there is a different quality to ones awareness. The dual nature of thought creates the illusion of separation, which results in the "one" who references the past in order to compare and judge the moment. When you actually see and realize this, not conceptually but actually, then ones mind is no longer trapped by a conditioned and thus limited consciousness. Negation is the key, you cannot realize a consciousness that is unconditioned without negating the self that is the separation of knowing and the known. Negation is freedom that is not freedom from something, but the outcome of a mind that has realized the truth of the self.