Origin

I was meditating in the early hours of the morning, there was a stillness that could not be disturbed and in that same moment a clarity that was without any purpose or sense of time. The mind moves through its emotional content and at times singles out events that define and give meaning. There have been relationships that we cling to and somehow try to understand and assign significance. We seek out the results of our experience, we look at who we imagine ourselves to be and wonder how it all took place. We realize that we were not really aware of circumstances and try to grasp some significance in the memory of what was. But those moments have passed and this is a new moment. Can I understand the true nature of who I am, of the consciousness of self by looking at and through the past? Is the origin of this moment a product of the past of what was or is it in reality something entirely new? It seems we are trapped in yesterdays ending which becomes today's beginning. It is the continuity of what was, the projection of a never ending origin.

Origin is an interesting word. It means the beginning which becomes the extrapolation of what was. Extrapolated origins are diffused and hidden by the accumulation of the experiential. It is very difficult to realize the origin of the many images of self and its accompanying fear. Understanding is complicated by the minds desire to escape the reality of what is for the reality of what should be. If a person can stay in the absolute moment then it is possible to realize the origin of all that causes the fear of not knowing and not being. We trend to look at life as a continuance of yesterday. It gives us a sense of control, the ability to predict. We desire predictability which provides the illusion of security. So we become trapped in the repetition of the origin of our fear. We are unable and unwilling to realize the newness of the moment and that in reality it has no relationship to what was. Because we project the origin of our fear we cannot accept the beauty of the moment which is the change the transformation of what was into the peace and love of the eternal present. To exist in the moment is to realize the originality of a consciousness that has no connection. It is not part of the minds desire to know, capture or define. It is the outcome of the realization of total freedom.