Conditioning and the Immunity of Self

People, friends, and acquaintances have expressed on occasion their inability to fully understand some of what I say and write about. I must confess that I too have difficulty completely understanding some of it. The spoken or written word is never the reality. The conditioned mind exist in the realm of thoughts movement, in its own self created reality. The word is always the past, the memory of a self that knows. It is the result of communication on one level. It is the superficial level of concept, of the conceptual, an approximation of actual reality. True reality is in the absolute moment, in which the self and the word is not. If there is naming in the moment then there is the illusion of a self that knows. It is simple and complex at the same time. The simplicity is in the absence of self. The complexity is in understanding the reality of emptiness of non-being through knowing and the known. The unknown which is the moment can never be known, so we use words to point too, to direct a possibility, but in the end one must simply allow what is hidden by the known to be realized but not captured. Illumination is a moment to moment dynamic realization that is absent knowing. Knowing being the conceptualizing movement of a defined self that accumulates. What is accumulated by the self contributes to the defined and results in the projected image of self in what is. That is why we say the observer is the observed. What we are (the defined) and what we see or observe, is in reality the projection of self. Our interpretation of what is observed is the reflection of self. Then it is understood that relationships mirror the self. If one is selfless then one mirrors truth and love.

Because the mind exist in a state of conditioned flux, understanding depends on where you are at psychologically. What is the state of ones mind? Is the mind consumed with its latest life struggle, and to what extent does this affect perception? It is important to quiet the mind, meditation that is not seeking a result. Meditation does not mean forcing ones self to sit in the lotus position and become a blanked out zombie. It means entering a psychological state of non-movement, of allowing the moment to enfold you. No matter what you are doing you can meditate in this fashion. Just be aware, choicelessly, of the self, not judging or concluding, just allowing what is. Then a wave of peace will come over you and you will be able to experience an intelligence that sees the truth of the moment. It is the dissipation of a self that knows.

People sometimes get obsessed with the idea of transformation, they are looking for an event that will cause them to live life in complete peace and harmony. Unfortunately people like this writer contribute to this illusion of a self that is transformed. In reality the self cannot be transformed. The self remains what it is no matter what ones level of realization. The self is the conditioning of the past, the defined elemental accumulation of what has been. The self by definition is immune to transformation. The immunity of the self is a non-negotiable fact. It cannot be what it is not. Then what is it that is transformed? Actually nothing is transformed. But the word is used to connotate a change in understanding and perception. The conditioned self interprets according to the content of the conscious mind. It is ones conditioned consciousness. When there is realization in the moment that is not a result of ones conditioning, then what understands is a consciousness that is unconditioned. It is an intelligence that is beyond thoughts prejudices'. Prejudice is the result of the known. The limitations of thoughts knowing.

Understanding that is not of the self is through the negation of the known. One does not become transformed, which is the illusion of self. One is already transformed. When the self is not, then the reality of truth is.