Freedom and the Moment

How do you normally live?  That is, what is self? The consciousness that feels anger, pain, suffering and all the other emotions and feelings that hold us captive? Is it possible to stay in the moment totally and so understand the beginning and source of all that we call living? I am referring to the conscious entity that is aware of its self as the actor who is both the observer and the observed.  In order to get to the deeper levels of one's consciousness the mind must be quiet. In the throws of chaotic emotion and disturbance it is possible to realize a center of complete calm. But one must earnestly be able to separate the known from the unknown. Psychologically we are simultaneously a duality that is caught in the reaction of learned and experienced conflict and the denial of it. We are in denial because we want control instead of understanding. Control is the escape. Understanding is the dissipation of the duality that is the one who suffers and the one who controls.  Staying with that feeling that emotion is what leads us to discover the non-dual.  One can only have hate, jealousy, fear, violence, despair, loneliness as the result of the known.  So can you see that to live totally in the moment means that you live in the unknown.  The unknown is absent all your petty emotions and fears.  The unknown allows for complete understanding that provides original insight into one's physical and mental state. One realizes that all problems and issue's are the creation of a divided mind that is seeking what should be instead of understanding the reality of what is.

Staying with the self that is experiencing the moment is the beginning of an intelligence that understands the angst of a mind that lives in the past.  That suffers for the moment that just passed. A moment that is in fact no longer reality.  Reality is only in the absolute moment.  As such each moment brings with it the possibility of a consciousness that is totally free and therefore totally at peace.  One sees that nothing is missing.  That psychologically you are whole and complete.  The mind is free of the illusion of a duality that is both the creator and arbitror of what disturbs. Do you understand this moment totally?