Writing to the Illusion

It has been brought up that their are those who believe that what is written on this blog are critical of long standing institutions of peace and freedom and that a great disservice is done by seeming to demean them. Also it has been said that this writer believes himself to be above others and somewhat condescending toward teachers and institutions that have helped a great many.

When this person writes, it is to no one in particular. No one, either individually or collectively, is sought to be influenced. All that is written is written to and for the writer as a means of examination, to look into depths of the self and to see in the moment the effect of what is. Much of what is written can only be understood by the writer, for it comes out of the depths of the confused and the conflicted. You cannot be taught by another, you must find the truth for yourself. In order for you to realize truth one must be free of all that prevents one from seeing truth. So it seems that a person, if they at all serious, must negate. To negate, in order to realize something that is not a repetition of the conflict, confusion, and fear that is the content of ones own consciousness. A person needs to see in the moment what is the truth of that content. Not to posit blame but to see and understand the origin of ones own conflict and the result of that conflict. To realize what it is that gives life and energy to the continuity of conflict that is the self that knows. So if the writer sees that ideals and institutions are the result of this conflict, then one will attempt to write down the source of that which contributes to the repetition of that conflict. It is to create a revolution within that frees the mind from the bonds of idealistic tradition. To rely on the past is to relinquish the freedom of the moment and the possibility of understanding that transcends the harbingers of conflict and fear. Each individual must realize just how much they are influenced and controlled by conditioned acquiescence. For the new to be the old must pass. Those who want to hold on to the security of the past are doomed to the repetition of its conflict, fear and violence. This writer really only says one thing over and over again only in different contexts and in different words....That is total freedom, for any one who reads this blog to be totally free. Freedom that is the beginning of an understanding that is not a repetition of the past. When you see and realize as an unconditioned entity then a new way of looking at events happens. It is understanding that goes beyond the mind that is ideologically caught in the illusion of a self that knows.

This writer and what is written is of no consequence. What is important is that one see and realize in the moment the true nature of the conditioned self. When you see the self as it is without any excuses, justification or validation then freedom is a possibility. That freedom is the beginning of the new and never before, which "is" from moment to moment.

The Illusion of Organization

What does it mean to organize, to think in terms of organizational concepts? To some it means to come together to accomplish a "common" goal. Through acquisition or accumulation as a group we seek to put forth or cause to happen our agreed upon agenda. The results of our efforts as a group can be material or psychological in nature, but ultimately will affect individuals and other organizations both psychologically and materially. Organizations can have far reaching effects beyond what may have been their original intention. They often reap benefits simply because they have amassed assets that give them power and influence over those in authority. It is a sad commentary that we allow our lives to be controlled by organizational greed. All organizations are greedy, this includes organizations of a religious nature as well as political and corporate ones.

What is the true nature of organization? Why must we organize? Is it not fear? Of course it is fear. If you are not aware, if you live a superficial life of belief and superstition you must be in fear. You think you are somebody, an ego that needs to be fed as the self created fear of not being. It is basic, we organize in order to be a collective somebody that wants to escape fear. We don't want to understand fear, we just want to be protected. We want to hide and pretend that we are organized against the possibility of the many forms of what it is that we fear. So very basically we organize out of fear. And what we organize is our fear, our true agenda is to try and control our own creation which is fear. In doing so we only create more fear by becoming an authority and influencing others into our fear, which is the game of fear that we all play. When we organize we create authority. That authority is what we follow so as to escape fear. But what we don't realize is that authority and fear are one in the same. They are not separate except that the mind divides in order to define. But if you look past the definition to the truth of the absolute moment you will see that fear and authority exist as one. They are the result of organization. When you understand completely the nature of organization and authority then there is a dissipation of fear. Not a particular type of fear, but the psychological basis of all fear. To avoid this maze of self perpetuating fear is not escapism but intelligence that sees the reality and truth of the moment. When you realize it you move away from it, not as a reaction of the self that is seeking to blame or conclude, but intelligence that is the outcome of freedom. Then organizations have no meaning and there goings on have no affect on a consciousness that exist in the freedom of the absolute moment. When you have negated the influence of all organizations you have moved beyond the collective consciousness of fear to a consciousness that is unconditioned and free to realize the truth of the moment. Most people cannot imagine an existence in total freedom, having no beliefs, either religious or political...without any organization, to exist beyond an organizational mentality. But if you have the passion and the fortitude to realize the truth about your self that is the outcome of original understanding. An understanding that is not the result of a teacher or a book or the authority of the self. It all starts with freedom, the iconoclastic negation of all save the unconditioned absolute moment of release and rebirth. The illumination of the unnamed and undefined.

Living in Insecurity

Words have a conotation to them. They evoke feelings and opinions that are largely a result of our conditioning. Many things contribute to the conotation of a word. They are the conditions that influence how we think and act on an unconscious level as well as a conscious one. We all have things that are indelibly tatooted on our minds, things that are hidden deep in the subconscious. We are essentially controlled by the content of our minds and we react according to the insecurity of self perception. Because we live as defined entities through words we cannot go beyond the limitations of the content of our minds. We seek the security of accumulation and knowing. But no matter how much we acquire or know we cannot escape the insecurity of not having and not knowing. We follow routines (paths, religions, philosophies) in an attempt to overcome or find the higher self. But in the end we remain the same, captives of our conditioning. We may add to or modify that conditioning but we cannot fundamentally change what is the established character of ones psyche. If the mind is aware in the moment and has the quality of selflessness, then it is possible see into the depths of ones own psyche and understand beyond word and definition. That understanding is the release that cannot be made to happen through some practice or formulation. It comes uninvited without result or reason and knows no authority either of the self or the other.

If you are aware then you accept insecurity as what is, not through defintion or conditioned understanding, but as the outcome of total freedom that is the negation of the acquired and the known. Negation not as a concept of disagreement or conclusion, but understanding that is an in the moment realization of what is. What is, is seeing through the true self (total freedom) and realizing the intelligence of an entity that is the action of the original. Living in insecurity is living in the unknown, not trying to escape into the activity of the conditioned. The conditioned mind is a mind of repetition and the illusion of security. It is the constant conflict of what should be instead of the acceptance and understanding of what is. You cannot live in peace unless you live in the insecurity of the unknown. Do you see and understand the depth of this?

Freedom and Authority

People want to express their views and to seek validity for what they believe. It is difficult to fully understand the psychological dynamic that is behind our desire to express a belief and to have others think as we do. As a whole people are extremely insecure, that is one of the reasons they must hold on to a belief. A belief gives psychological substance to identity and the desire to be an entity that is secure in knowing. One has to go very deep to realize how connected ones beliefs are to fear, conflict and ultimately violence. It is easy to make the connection on a superficial level, but it involves quite another level of awareness to see and realize how this state of mind becomes a prison of fear. No one is immune from this fear. If you are a thinking and moving individual then you are in fear, it is an inescapable fact. The most difficult thing is to realize just how subtle fear is and how much ingrained in our psyche it is. When you see this in your self in the moment, not as a concept, but the actual experiencing of it in the moment, then it is possible to move beyond it. But a person must lay the foundation in order to see and be aware. One has to negate, so that freedom is a possibility. It takes passion and vulnerability to be experiencing total freedom. It is very simple in concept, but difficult in reality. Ones prison is the known, the familiar, the predictable. Freedom in a sense means insecurity, it means not knowing. A person can see the difficulty, to let go is to lose your life, the defined self. Only a very few have made the leap into this emptiness. Many are on the fringes, but one is either totally free or not free at all. But a person must understand that total freedom is not a state of permanency, it is re-realized in each moment of existence. It is not a realization (past tense), but "realizing" that is in the moment. It is an all encompassing awareness that does not define or seek to know. The reality of it does not involve choice or choosing. It is the simplicity of just seeing in the moment the actual reality of ones situation and how one is affected by the dynamic of what is and the minds desire for what should be. A person is stressed by daily life. We get caught up in activities and events that cause us to react psychologically. Because we are unaware that we are the cause of our own conflict and misery, we posit blame and responsibility on the other. On a very deep level this is connected to our desire to find relief in a belief, an escape from our responsibility. It is very difficult to live in total freedom, because to live as such is to take total responsibility for the reactive self.

Can we overcome the desire to be noteworthy, to have wealth, position, and title? Many people experience the despair that accompanies the desire to be a defined presence. Even those who are deemed "successful" experience extreme bouts of inadequacy and insecurity. We want to fill that hole in our psyche that is part of the minds desire for accomplishment and accumulation. The more you "acquire" psychologically and physically the more transparently superficial you become. The acquisitive mind is desperately seeking to have in order to be. A person is unable to realize that they are caught in thoughts illusion of knowing as the projection of a desired self that must be created through accumulation. This is the worlds conflict, a collective of conditioned minds that are constantly moving in a circle of fear. Minds that are seeking to acquire in order to alay fears. But seeking and the perceived acquisition of what is sought are the problem. It only leads one down the path of the addictive activity of acquisitive hegemony. It is the authority of one who possesses. One must realize that all authority is an illusion of ones conditioning. There is authority only when one allows or creates authority. As long as there is the authority of the known one can never realize the true freedom of the moment.

World Peace

Some friends were having a discussion about whether or not world peace was a possibility. In the end they all decided that it was perhaps an impossibility. The consensus was generally that the differences in religion and culture prohibited agreement on many issues that would be necessary for achieving a permanent lasting peace.

Why is it that we always think of peace as something that another has to accomplish either through international diplomacy or organizational agreement and conformity? Does not the true reality of peace start with the individual? All organizations have an agenda to promote. True peace cannot be an agenda that is the concept of a few to enforce upon the many. Organizations always promote through fear. Peace and fear cannot exist in the same room together. So true peace starts with each individual. The truth of it cannot be an organizational plan with political aims that seek to enforce a will. The concept of peace can be manipulated through organizational stipulation that ultimately leads to the accumulation of wealth and power. Wealth, power and influence are the true aims of all organizational elements, not peace. Though organizations may have high sounding goals that seem to have peace as their primary goal, the true nature of the mind that wants to organize is rife with self promotion and self aggrandizement.

Only the individual can realize the truth of peace that is not the result of goal orientation. Goal orientation is at the heart of the conflict of position and opposition. When one seeks to posit blame and responsibility then peace goes out the window. Peace is the responsibility of each individual, but it can never be realized as long as a person finds fault in the moment and is unable to accept the truth of what is. When all else is not (all that you think you are and want to believe about yourself), then peace is. In other words when the self is not then peace is a possibility. For it is the self that cannot accept the peace of the moment which is the actual reality of ones conflicted mind. When thought ceases to live in the illusion of seeking the concept of peace, and instead realizes its self as the only barrier to peace, then something quite enlightening happens. One sees for the first time that peace is what is and that nothing in the reality of the absolute moment has to be done to create peace, because ones doing is the problem. All a person has to do is to stop refusing peace and simply start living it from moment to moment. Living peace in the moment means that a person is no longer affected by the personal baggage that one has carried around all ones life. It means that you stop seeking to blame the other for your own insecurities and inadequacies, but instead realize a release that is blameless. To live in peace means that you accept the other. One must give peace to the world so that one can live in peace. It is of no consequence what others think or practice, what is important is that you share the peace within. The world is in peace all you have to do is accept it and allow it. If you understand the depth of this statement then it is the beginning of world peace which is the peace within.

Peace is the natural outcome a mind that has realized that its conclusions and prejudices are the result of a conditioned consciousness. Freedom is the outcome of the negation of the minds preoccupation with "what should be" (its conditioning). Peace is the outcome of that freedom. They are in the reality of the absolute moment one in the same.

Freedom in the Absolute

What is the reality of total freedom? Can we define something that the mind can never really "know"? If in the moment we realize that we are a conditioned entity and that our lives are essentially a projected repetition of what has been, then what is the nature of a true state of freedom? It is not in the nature of dualistic thought to "let go" of things. We accumulate so that we can define and exist in the illusion of the known. If you look carefully and attentively at the movement of the dualistic self you may have the realization that your actual life is not about freedom. Not until death is there a total release of all that has been accumulated. But what if it were possible to be "experiencing" death while still living? Dieing to the moment so that there is no residual self that is seeking to influence the truth of each succeeding moment. It is leaving behind the baggage of the known which weights us down with the conflict and confusion of opinion and conclusion. It is much more than just having an "open mind" about things. It is having "no mind" which is the reality of not comparing and judging. Such a state of existence allows a new intelligence to operate. One in which there is freedom to understand the reality of what is without condemnation or approval. One is always in expectation so one is attached to the ideals of a psyche that exist in the duality of position and opposition. It is differentiation, as the me and the other or not me. It is the conflict of division which has its origins in the minds desire to acquire and accumulate. What you own, materially or psychologically, also owns you to an extent that one cannot possibly be free. You are controlled by what you accumulate, it is your prison. You can readily see this phenomenon in your life and can understand it conceptually, but can you go deep into the psyche, to the origin of your desire. Unless you can realize something that is not an "escape" but an understanding, you will not realize the truth of freedom. Freedom that is not an idealistic acquisition. If you are wanting me to write down all the answers so that you can follow some path, or find some formula, then you have missed the point. One has to explore ones own psyche and see in the moment the reality of the self that is caught in this quagmire of conflict and confusion. A big part of it is the mind that is seeking. Realize that seeking and what you seek are the illusion of a mind that is a projection of what one knows. It is ones conditioned consciousness. You cannot escape it, you can only understand its origin. That understanding is its dissipation. It is understanding that is not the result of knowledge but of "allowing" that is an absence of the discriminating self. It is direct seeing that is not connected to any former knowing or ideological formulation. If you have realized the true self (total freedom) directly then you will not be able to define it or compare it to any previous experience. Memory will fail to capture it. When the dualistic self tries to remember, it will be unable to. It will not be able to conceptualize. The truth of it remains outside ones conditioned consciousness. So it is a moment to moment realization that is ever the new. One can create similes to try and explain but the actual reality of it only exist in the absolute moment. That moment is the direct experiencing of an unconditioned and selfless consciousness that sees the totality of what is. It is a consciousness that is outside a self that is consumed with the reactive projection of what should be.

A person can look and not see because the mind is cluttered with all sorts of ideas that pop up as a result of association. Because you are attached you only know attachment, it is your conditioned way of living. So every attempt at realizing true freedom only results in further attachment. One has to see ones own psyche in action, in the moment, before a person can truly realize the extent of ones imprisonment. If you truly see in the moment and realize just how controlled you are then that is the release. You don't have to think about it and formulate some plan of action or follow some useless formula. This is what "religious" people do, they are seekers that are caught in self perpetuating conflict. Freedom in the absolute, means freedom from everything that is the self generated.