Living in Insecurity

Words have a conotation to them. They evoke feelings and opinions that are largely a result of our conditioning. Many things contribute to the conotation of a word. They are the conditions that influence how we think and act on an unconscious level as well as a conscious one. We all have things that are indelibly tatooted on our minds, things that are hidden deep in the subconscious. We are essentially controlled by the content of our minds and we react according to the insecurity of self perception. Because we live as defined entities through words we cannot go beyond the limitations of the content of our minds. We seek the security of accumulation and knowing. But no matter how much we acquire or know we cannot escape the insecurity of not having and not knowing. We follow routines (paths, religions, philosophies) in an attempt to overcome or find the higher self. But in the end we remain the same, captives of our conditioning. We may add to or modify that conditioning but we cannot fundamentally change what is the established character of ones psyche. If the mind is aware in the moment and has the quality of selflessness, then it is possible see into the depths of ones own psyche and understand beyond word and definition. That understanding is the release that cannot be made to happen through some practice or formulation. It comes uninvited without result or reason and knows no authority either of the self or the other.

If you are aware then you accept insecurity as what is, not through defintion or conditioned understanding, but as the outcome of total freedom that is the negation of the acquired and the known. Negation not as a concept of disagreement or conclusion, but understanding that is an in the moment realization of what is. What is, is seeing through the true self (total freedom) and realizing the intelligence of an entity that is the action of the original. Living in insecurity is living in the unknown, not trying to escape into the activity of the conditioned. The conditioned mind is a mind of repetition and the illusion of security. It is the constant conflict of what should be instead of the acceptance and understanding of what is. You cannot live in peace unless you live in the insecurity of the unknown. Do you see and understand the depth of this?