Why Do I Write?

Trying to understand and realize the internal through the external never works. A person cannot fully realize the origin of the minds conflict and confusion by seeking outside the self. Because the problems of life are created from within, one must probe the depths of ones own psyche to realize freedom that is not the result of some systematic faith or belief. Adding to an already conflicted mind only further complicates self realization. Freedom that is not the artificial creation of a mind that is seeking. The mind can only realize a continuation and modification of what has gone on before. It cannot realize that which is totally new, that is without a self that is caught in the conceptual. No matter how much you meditate or study the mind cannot escape its conditioning. One can only realize that which is not of the self though negation. It is the negation of all that is accumulated as the past. What most fail to realize is that psychological freedom is not the result of an activity or a belief. It is simply the outcome of awareness that is absent the one who seeks, observes, and concludes. This defined entity is the past. The mind dwells in the past. As you experience, you store what is experience as memory (the past). The mind uses the past to try and define (understand) the moment. Thought as the movement of self references the past in an attempt to validate the moment. It is prejudicial understanding. I don't know if you can grasp the significance of the limitations of what is essentially a mind that is enclosed in a box of self illusion? Such a mind cannot accept the truth of the moment, because comparison and opinion control thought as the self that "knows".

A person is trapped in the prison of the known. There is no escape from this prison, there is only the understanding of what is. The illumination of the absolute moment. In the untainted moment there is freedom from the known. Freedom is not the accumulation of knowledge, of learning, it is the antithesis of the accumulated which conditions the mind into repetition. The known is the continuity of the self that has definition therefore identity. It is the illusion of permanency. When there is freedom from the self that knows, then there is realization of a consciousness that is absent the conditioning of the past. The outcome is a clarity that sees the truth of the moment without the self that is the divisiveness of a mind that is seeking to know.

The mind of illusion understands through repetition. So when I write this blog I say the same thing over and over, only from different perspectives. When I write it, it is for the self of illusion that I write for, not so you can attain an illuminated consciousness or become "enlightened". The realization is originally yours to see. You cannot "know" what another has or does not have. One can point to it but one cannot tell you what it is. So if you have the passion of simplicity and vulnerability that allows one to discard all the nonsense of the accumulated, then perhaps you will realize a consciousness that is beyond the conditioned self. I write this blog anonymously because the person I am is of no consequence. This personality is no different from your own. I write because I realize myself in others...with the same deficiencies and at times utter lack of compassion. The world and its people are my teachers, there conflict and confusion is my own. But if I see in the moment the reflection of what I am in others then perhaps I will have a realization of my own inadequacy. Then staying in the moment and seeing my self as I actually am, I change....not though some ideological or self indulgent spiritual pipe dream...but through the reality of what is, the absolute moment. In the absolute moment is the unknown, the reality of truth that is without a self that knows.