Choice

What is the state of a mind that decides, that chooses? When a person is faced with a choice, consciously, what is the psychological mechanism that creates the dualistic nature of choice and why does choice matter? If you look at it as one who is removed from the emotional and intellectual aspects of choice then it may be possible to have a very important realization about the self. If we want to find out the truth we have to look directly, not through our scientific, ideological or spiritual conditioning, but without the self that is calculating out of its preconception. All knowledge is a result of conditioned preconception, unless you can see the truth of this then it will be difficult for you to self realize in the moment.

A person must realize and recognize the difference between choice that is a result of the known and the simplicity of a consciousness that is moving with the natural flow of circumstances. A mind that is free of attachment is a mind that is not projecting the conflict of the past. Each moment presents its self free of the previous moment. It is a breaking free of the minds requirement for conformity to ideological opinion and conclusion. The continuity of thought as the past is the prison of a mind that lives in the illusion of what was. Awareness that is choiceless does not dwell in the duality of a mind that is seeking the self defining elements of choice. What ever the circumstance choice has no validity as that which provides psychological definition. While one makes choice's out of necessity, that choice does not imply a linked continuity to ones conditioned consciousness. Choiceless means without attachment. Choices are without significance to a consciousness that is unconditioned. Choices are neither right nor wrong, good nor bad, they are of the past therefore they are not sought as a validation of the moment. The self that is seeking truth through the validation of choices made in the past will only find the conflict and confusion of a mind that is trapped in the illusion of the known. Realize the freedom of the moment which is without the self that is choosing.

Once the mind has taken a course of action then it becomes the past tense, it has already occurred. Action is only in the moment, to dwell on the past is the activity of a mind that becomes a prisoner of the self absorbed, a mind that is attached. One who is attached is escaping the truth of the moment. It is the intelligence of a person who can realize beyond the projection of a defined self.

Words

Communication is through words which are not reality. Words are an agreed upon representation of reality. Words allow us to recall an approximation of an image that is a formulation of the mind. The substance of that image and its relationship to actual reality is subjective and entirely a product of the mind that recalls. The conditioned mind of the individual will determine and limit the extent of understanding that is involved in communication. Since we think in terms of words that conjure images we understand by way of concept. The world that we live in is essentially a conceptual world.

Is it possible to realize, to see that conceptual understanding is actually understanding that is illusive and dependent on ones state of mind. It is contextual, very narrow and motivated by self interest. We understand according to what we want to understand regardless of the actual reality. Self image plays an important part in understanding, because it is from the self that we formulate. It is logically circular thinking. When we communicate we are looking for conformity that validates self image.

If you realize in the moment and observe thoughts activity as self serving, then it is possible for you to negate that activity. Through negation one is able to realize the truth of the moment which is understanding that is beyond the self that "knows". A person sees in the moment the conceptual activity of a mind that is caught in its own conditioning. Because the mind is so clogged up with images of a self defining nature it is very difficult to let go. It is as though you are losing your identity, which is exactly the point. To negate the illusion of a self that "knows".

Absent the self that knows, there is an entity that is intimately one with the unknown. That which is true reality and the unfolding of that which is an absence rather than a presence. It is the experiencing of a clarity that is beyond all knowledge. It is intelligence that is without intellectual attachment.

So I continue to write in groups of words that really have no meaning. Except that a person(s) may read a sentence and see themselves in the words and realize in a moment of clarity the truth of the unknown. The origin of the truth is within each person, it is the truth of the absolute moment which is there for all to realize.

The Break Through

There is a very basic realization that is the difference between living through ones illusion of self knowledge and living through a consciousness of unattached freedom. While it is basic in the sense that it is essentially the key to understanding that is beyond knowing, it is very difficult to realize. Since the mind is a store house of information, what we come in contact with is converted into the conceptual (the memory of). So without exception all knowledge is conceptual not actual. Our concepts become our conditioning. We think according to the conceptual content of our mind. Can a person think outside concept? If you try you will see that thought itself is concept. That is why thought can never go beyond the conceptual. But if one can negate conceptual conditioning as it becomes a conscious movement of the self then it is possible to come to a level of consciousness that is not of ones memory. Therefore it is "unconditioned". It is essentially total freedom of an entity that is in the absolute moment.

If you have thoughts of the unconditioned and how to attain it, then that is the minds illusion of conceptuality. One is seeking an item of ownership, so to speak. To have or not to have becomes the minds limited understanding. Only the self can own. The self is the illusion of an entity that is seeking permanency as the creation of thoughts accumulations. It seems complicated but it is really very simple. It is made complicated by the minds inability to let of go of its conceptualizing tendency, to understand through its conditioning.

I write a lot about freedom. But it is so very important that one realize that you are just spinning your wheels if you do not first free yourself of all your accumulated attachments of belief and conclusion. All belief and conclusion is based on the conditioned mind (consciousness). Until you break through your conditioning you will only be adding to a mind that is already confused and conflicted. You will continue to dwell in an existence of fear and anxiety that is the result of your conditioning. What we are talking about is in a sense the iconoclastic negation of all save the absolute moment in which one finds the true self. A self that is without the defining elements of ones conditioned consciousness, a self that is free of all attachment.

A truly anonymous person is psychologically without the need of identity or identification. This is the illumination of the unconditioned. Such a person accepts the reality of the moment without pre-conceptualization. Within and without there no judgement or conclusion. There is only the truth of the absolute moment. There is neither agreement nor disagreement, right nor wrong. This is the way of the truly enlightened. Once a person is experiencing the truth of the moment then conflict and confusion begins to dissipate of its own accord. Attachments fall away as a natural consequence of a mind that is free of its conditioning. It is the simplicity of life lived selflessly and consciously in the moment.

Can the Mind "Know" Freedom?

What is your level of awareness? Does that awareness see and realize the depth of your illusion?The subtleties of a mind that is a prisoner of belief and attachment. The violence of an individuality that is seeking power and influence. The mind that is aggressive and self serving is a mind that is destructive, seeking to escape its own perceived inadequacy. Why do we not see, totally within ourselves, the physical and psychological evidence of our society of greed and depraved image brokering? Why do we essentially repeat what has been throughout history, the destructiveness of authority and its organizational mentality? We cannot accept the truth of freedom that is our birthright, instead we want the illusion of security. Tyranny in the guise of "controlled and conditioned freedom". There is no freedom in the compromising dogma of authority. There is no middle ground with regard to freedom, there is only the truth of a persons actual state. Freedom is the outcome of an in the moment realization of what is. When you see "actually" that you are not free, then there is action in the moment.

If you are totally aware then there can be a revolution within. Throwing off all the accumulated junk that is the result of one's worship of authority. We are referring to the authority of the other and of the self. There is no authority unless one creates it, allowing the illusion of authority to control, results in the continuity of ones conflicted past. One adheres to the standards of what amounts to the psychologically ingrained aspects of a conditioned existence. If you live through your conditioning, then essentially you are a rote mechanism that mimics what has been. Your mind is auto-controlled by conceptual images that are the result of one's desire for security.

I don't know if you are aware of it but there is a relationship that exist between the desire for security and attachment that is essentially the minds way of escaping the truth of the moment. When there is attachment there is the illusion of security. But that attachment only leads to further desire for more attachment, which creates the fear of not having. It is the psychological impetus for all conflict. The reality is that attachment equals conflict because the ideal of security is the illusion a self that is seeking. A mind that is in illusion can realize that in the truth of the moment there is only insecurity. Life is in fact insecure. If one is illuminated, in a consciousness that is not a conditioned movement of the self that "knows", then one realizes that security and insecurity are one in the same. A person realizes the truth of freedom that is the dissipation of the duality of a mind that is caught in the defined. This realization is simplicity itself, but because the mind is captured by the opposition of defined ideals it is very difficult to see directly. This is why it is very important to let go of ones beliefs and attachments. Until you allow yourself to see clearly without opinion or conclusion you are forever trapped in the conditioned ignorance of your own mind. This is the reality, you must be free in order to realize freedom. That is why it is said that freedom is not freedom from something, but the realization of the true self. The true self that is without identification or attachment.

The Moment of Total Freedom

When at a person realizes a consciousness that is unconditioned then ones relationships take on a new quality. Since one loves unconditionally there is a caring that is selfless and without the motivations of a mind that is seeking to control or to find advantage. The mind that is calculating does for others in the hope of some future reward or for self satisfaction. The illumined does for others out of the simplicity of just doing without psychological attachment to what is done or its results. It is the freedom of a mind that is not caught in the duality of the self and its accomplishments. The husbandry of existence is the outcome of an entity that has realized the truth of the unknown. One does, being fully conscious of ones responsibility to all life, sentient and non-sentient. To exist as "one" with all that is, the yoga of within and without.

To live such a life is to exist in total freedom. That freedom allows the moment, and within the moment is the truth of the unconditioned. The peace of the non-continuous, the absence of the fallible repetition of past conflict and confusion. The truth of love is the spontaneous realization of oneself in the other. To realize that you are the other and that acceptance of the other is acceptance of oneself. It is understanding that transcends the known, one's cultivated intellect. A cultivated intellect can never realize the truth of love, it can only conceptualize through the image of self. The image of self that is preoccupied and obsessed with its opinions and prejudiced conclusions that are the result of belief and desire. In the moment a person sees the truth of ones actual state of disharmony. Seeing that is absent the self of conditioned response. It is the realization of an intelligence that exist only in the absolute moment and is without source or definition. When one observes without the observer then life takes on a new, different quality, that which is the direct "experiencing" of what is. This direct seeing is change without the ideal of change, the new entity that is without the angst of becoming. It is the peace and harmony of the moment of total freedom.

An Innocent Mind

When you are free of all the minds illusions of belief, conclusion and prejudice then it is possible for one to realize the innocence of non-attachment. One realizes and sees in the moment the superficiality of all the things that the mind clings to, all the things that define and limit a persons understanding. An innocent mind is without the need to subdue, control and manipulate ones environment. Such a mind allows the moment to unfold as though one were nonexistent. It is the intelligence of the absence of conditioned response. Conditioned response is seeking to control and to understand through the conflict of the past. But it only projects the confusion and conflict of its attachments. The conditioned self is unable to realize the intelligence of the innocence of that which is absent the accumulated.

If you have innocence of mind then you are like a blank page, observing the moment without an agenda. One dwells in the intelligence of the unconditioned. The mind is free of prejudice so a person is able to see and understand with a mind that is sharp and unencumbered. One sees into the very heart and essence of each person and circumstance that one encounters. Because you are totally free you have great compassion for all life and are able to calm with the presence of an entity that is one with the moment.

Do not ask, how can I be innocent? But realize in the moment how that your mind escapes the innocence of true reality, see that you actually are of innocence. When the mind is still, not creating its own reality then what is, is of an innocent nature. It is a mind that is not scheming, trying to gain the upper hand. An experienced mind is a dead mind. A mind that is caught in yesterdays conflict and tomorrow's fear. It is the repetition of controlled ignorance. Experience springs from one's desire to be attached to things that provide identity and a sense of self. The innocent mind dwells in the absolute moment which is the "experiencing" of the moment that is without the self that is projecting the known. An innocent mind is the outcome of freedom and an unconditioned consciousness.

The Content of the Subconscious

There are many theories about the subconscious mind or even if it actually exist. But a clear understanding of the self must be the result of a mind that is free of the conceptual. When we define human understanding we limit it to the conditioning of the experiential. If you realize that how you think and understand is the product of your programing then it is possible to negate ones accumulated conditioning. Negation is not a reactive activity of emotional distaste for something imagined, it is a cancellation of thoughts tendency to assign reactive meaning to stereotypical subconscious memories. If a person can see in the moment the minds activity of assigning measured adjudication to what is, then it is possible for that realization to negate the prejudicial. It is simply seeing the true reality of what is without the self that is concluding. It is a consciousness that is beyond right and wrong, beyond good and evil. Such a mind realizes the true relationship that exist in opposites. That one contains the seed of the other. That they are in reality the same, one activity of a mind that is caught in the illusion of knowing. The outcome of this realization is freedom. Freedom that is the action of the intelligence of the moment rather than the reaction of conditioned thought, which is the defined past.

Is it possible to empty the subconscious mind of all its aberrant images? Aberrant images are stereotypes that are created by a mind that is seeking identification through the defined. If the mind is quiet and in a state of meditation that is the consciousness of an unconditioned intelligence then it is possible to be aware of deeper levels of psychological and emotional programing. It can be understood on an intellectual level, but intellect cannot override what is psychologically and emotionally ingrained in the mind. A person must realize in the moment the origin of self identification that is part of the images of the subconscious. One must realize and understand that these images are not a separate ideal from the self, but that they are in fact the self. The duality of thought creates the me and the not me. But it is the illusion of thoughts desire to be, to realize a permanency, that causes one to create two realities. So if one realizes the origin of projected subconscious image as the self then the dissipation of the self that knows is also the dissipation of that image. The mind sees the truth and is through with it, it dies in the moment of realization. This activity of emptying out the subconscious creates a capacity for the realization of an expansion of a consciousness that is unconditioned, an intelligence that is beyond anything that thought can imagine. Such a mind is capable of unconditioned love. It is not a static state of knowing, but a moment to moment realization of the movement of thought as the self that exist in the illusion of the known. Realization of the true self is the dissipation of the conditioned and the flowering of a consciousness that is unconditioned. Acceptance and understanding of true reality is the outcome of the unconditioned.

The content of the subconscious mind is the product of manipulated belief which becomes the repetitious image of what one believes to be true through association and elemental definition. Repetition or perceived repetition overcomes the disdain for what we know in reality as prejudicial thinking. But because most are lazy in realizing truth, we act as automatons that simply mimic the opinions and conclusions of a given peer group. Group psychology is a very powerful motivating force. It can sway the consciousness of an entire nation or it can cause one to simply accept the unchallenged teachings of the neighborhood "Guru". We live in an era of mass communication and pre-programed institutionalized thought controlling commercialism. If you are unaware that you are being bombarded with infomercials that attempt to control what you think and how you think then you can be swept away by all the attempts at glamorizing stupidity. Subconsciously, the ideals of these merchants of greed and acquisition can become ingrained in the psyche, becoming somewhat immune to intellectual understanding. So it is not enough to rid oneself of the aberrations of stereotyping and prejudice that are part of the subconscious, one must realize the mechanism that seeks out and clings to the images that one is bombarded with on a daily basis. The things that we are exposed to are very subtle and how they affect us depends on our level of awareness. But if a person is aware of the origins of self illusion then one becomes immune to all attempts at brainwashing by organizations and individuals with an agenda, the apparent and the hidden.

Why Do I Write?

Trying to understand and realize the internal through the external never works. A person cannot fully realize the origin of the minds conflict and confusion by seeking outside the self. Because the problems of life are created from within, one must probe the depths of ones own psyche to realize freedom that is not the result of some systematic faith or belief. Adding to an already conflicted mind only further complicates self realization. Freedom that is not the artificial creation of a mind that is seeking. The mind can only realize a continuation and modification of what has gone on before. It cannot realize that which is totally new, that is without a self that is caught in the conceptual. No matter how much you meditate or study the mind cannot escape its conditioning. One can only realize that which is not of the self though negation. It is the negation of all that is accumulated as the past. What most fail to realize is that psychological freedom is not the result of an activity or a belief. It is simply the outcome of awareness that is absent the one who seeks, observes, and concludes. This defined entity is the past. The mind dwells in the past. As you experience, you store what is experience as memory (the past). The mind uses the past to try and define (understand) the moment. Thought as the movement of self references the past in an attempt to validate the moment. It is prejudicial understanding. I don't know if you can grasp the significance of the limitations of what is essentially a mind that is enclosed in a box of self illusion? Such a mind cannot accept the truth of the moment, because comparison and opinion control thought as the self that "knows".

A person is trapped in the prison of the known. There is no escape from this prison, there is only the understanding of what is. The illumination of the absolute moment. In the untainted moment there is freedom from the known. Freedom is not the accumulation of knowledge, of learning, it is the antithesis of the accumulated which conditions the mind into repetition. The known is the continuity of the self that has definition therefore identity. It is the illusion of permanency. When there is freedom from the self that knows, then there is realization of a consciousness that is absent the conditioning of the past. The outcome is a clarity that sees the truth of the moment without the self that is the divisiveness of a mind that is seeking to know.

The mind of illusion understands through repetition. So when I write this blog I say the same thing over and over, only from different perspectives. When I write it, it is for the self of illusion that I write for, not so you can attain an illuminated consciousness or become "enlightened". The realization is originally yours to see. You cannot "know" what another has or does not have. One can point to it but one cannot tell you what it is. So if you have the passion of simplicity and vulnerability that allows one to discard all the nonsense of the accumulated, then perhaps you will realize a consciousness that is beyond the conditioned self. I write this blog anonymously because the person I am is of no consequence. This personality is no different from your own. I write because I realize myself in others...with the same deficiencies and at times utter lack of compassion. The world and its people are my teachers, there conflict and confusion is my own. But if I see in the moment the reflection of what I am in others then perhaps I will have a realization of my own inadequacy. Then staying in the moment and seeing my self as I actually am, I change....not though some ideological or self indulgent spiritual pipe dream...but through the reality of what is, the absolute moment. In the absolute moment is the unknown, the reality of truth that is without a self that knows.

Reflective Awareness

The word "awareness" has been bandied about by many who write books and give interviews and talks that allude to a knowledge of a defined consciousness. But all the esoteric mumbo jumbo that one is exposed to is really meaningless. It does nothing to further a realization of the actual, of ones day to day conflict. All these books and "teachers" only add to ones already confused and conflicted existence. A mind that is in the conflict and confusion of a conditioned consciousness cannot discover that which is without conflict. It can only project the continuity of the content of itself. It cannot go beyond itself, beyond its confused state, with its many different ideals and images.

So what is one to do? How can a person realize a state of peace and harmony that is not the result of some artificial trick of the mind? It is easy for us to self hypnotize ourselves into believing in some "new age" fantasy or to be hypnotized by another. We all are looking to escape the conflict of the moment, to find a respite from our own self created misery. Inspirational messages can give us a temporary feeling of elation and of a grounded self image. But the reality of the moment creeps in and again we find ourselves trapped by a mind that is seeking and desiring the "image" of what we are not.

Is it possible to be aware without seeking some sort of recompense? To exist in a state of awareness in which the self is absent, awareness that is without thoughts movement. If a person is observing quietly, all that is happening in the moment then it is possible to see ones reflection in what is observed. As you observe quietly you are able to realize thoughts movement as its own projection in what is observed. You see for the first time that you do not observe directly that what you thought was reality is tainted by self projection. It is ones self projected defined reality. As you observe and listen to others in the stillness of reflective awareness, you see thoughts movement in others. You see the reality of the self in others. As you realize the movement of your own thought do not try to suppress it. Allow it to flower without trying to make a judgement or have a conclusion. Reflective awareness does not make choices it simply looks at the reality of the self that is engaged in its own projected self enclosed observations. If you are attentive you will see how the mind grapples with its own prejudice and how that we are continually desiring what should be instead of accepting the reality of what is. When we are without acceptance then the mind creates the conflict and violence of a self that wants to alter what is to fit ones ideal. In reflective awareness you are not seeking, which means there are no choices. Whatever is observed is observed without comparison or conclusion. It is a state in which the mind is totally neutral. One is leaning neither to the right nor to the left.

Realizing that the mind reflects its own conflict and confusion in what is, is the beginning of understanding that creates change. That change is not something that is sought by the mind that wants change, but by the mind that accepts and understands the reality of the moment. The true reality of the moment is the change. A person sees directly, seeing that is absent the self of motivation and acquisition. That change is an unconditioned intelligence that realizes the truth of the moment. Because one is absent the ideal of "change" there is no self promotion as an entity that projects. It can be a deep psychological release that creates an atmosphere of change for all that one comes into contact with.