Personality and Organization

When will one stop projecting the conflict and violence of the self? Will one have a realization this very moment and see clearly how one uses the moment to create much psychological pain and suffering. One may say that they are not in conflict and are happy with their life and relationships. But one has to look deep within and realize the mischief that one causes. Because one projects the division of the self it is a fact that one is in conflict to a greater or lesser degree depending on ones state of mind. One can escape the fact by living in denial or one can realize the intelligence of vulnerability. One can let go of the ego/self and acknowledge the truth of the moment. The self has accumulated a very thick veneer of impenetrable experience. That experience has been organized into the self, ones conditioned consciousness. All ones "reactions" are conditioned and predictable. So one goes on in life the same with only minor modifications that conform to ones pattern of existence. Unless one realizes the vulnerability of the moment, and actually sees the truth, the true self, one will never transform. One will only live a life of modification. The modification of what was. Ones conflict and violence gets modified, but it is still there and still being projected. One may be toned down but one will revert back to what was, because the self "is" what was.

We try to find answers to questions of faith and belief in others, in personality and organization. We look through the outer to try and get to the inner, the center of that which is the beginning of all conflict. The answers are not in books, personalities and organizations, they are within. One must realize that questions and answers are one in the same. The self is seeking and projects that which it seeks. The answer is in the question. One questions because one is seeking confirmation of the ideal self. One is not seeking truth, one is seeking acknowledgement of what was. This may be difficult to realize, it is very subtle, and veiled by the fact that the self is absorbed with the identification and attachment of what was.

One must realize that personalities who speak and write books are looking for their own acknowledgement, they are in just as much conflict as ones self. They are seeking confirmation of self from their readers and listeners. They may seem to be above it all but they are in even more conflict than most. The book the talk/lecture is their escape from what is. If one is absent the illusion of self, then one will help when asked. But one will not be a commercial success at the expense of another. One is not seeking acknowledgement only that one may find the truth of that which is within. Illumination is within, it is already there, it is reflected in the truth of the moment. One only needs to be vulnerable to it.

If one is at all serious about transforming ones life, of finding that which is without conflict and fear, one must throw out the old. There must be a totally new approach to living. One must cease the activity of trying to seek and find through another. One must dedicate ones existence to being aware of the truth of the moment. Timeless awareness that is the meditation of the selfless. To most this will seem to intense and require effort that is without gratification. It is because one is caught in time, one is absorbed with the activity of self promotion. When one realizes the true self, one is on "autopilot", there is no effort there is only the peace of the absolute moment, there is no doing or seeking. There is no "reaction", there is only the calmness of the unconditioned, that which is illumination.