The Surfacing Consciousness

There a many experiences that are buried in the subconscious mind. Some are closer to the surface and are readily expressed as one is exposed to circumstances of familiarity that surround a particular event. Thought interprets the event in terms of past experience and reacts according to its programed conditioning. Accumulated experience is thoughts formulation of the self, of that which is the definition of self and of the projected self. The projected self is defined conceptual reality. In life we accumulate experiences that tend to polarize our thinking. These experiences create the conflict of opposition. It is the result of thoughts movement as the ideological self. As the separated, one is seeking to find answers outside the self. One wants to escape the burdening conflict of ones life. One may seek a system or personality which seems to fulfill needs. But to run to something is also to run away from something. In reality mind is only adding to existing conflict. That is why one continues to seek, to find a "new" something or someone which may provide answers. A mind that is in conflict cannot find that which is free of conflict. The activity of seeking is a manifestation of that conflict. The self creates that which it seeks, which is the image of accumulated illusion.

As one realizes the superficiality of a mind that is caught in the illusion of self, one begins to experience the surfacing of long held emotional barriers to understanding. As these experiences surface one is able to look at them directly without the conclusion and judgement of self. The outcome of this 'in the moment' realization of the past is the understanding and truth of what is. When in the moment if one has realization of the true self, then one sees into the actual reality and nature of a particular conflict. A particular experience of conflict will remain indefinitely within the consciousness until it has been understood by that which is not an activity of the accumulated self. Upon realizing the reality and source of a disturbance it drops away and one is no longer attached to an element of past conflict. Memory is cleansed of emotional attachment and the moment is no longer affected by that conflict. Psychologically ones personality may be altered to reflect the absence of that conflict. One may be experiencing peace that was previously hampered by that conflict. As ones consciousness realizes the release of pent up emotional and psychological conflict, one has the ability to realize the deepest levels of fear, that which is buried deep within the subconscious mind. One may realize the origin of all fear and emotional imbalance. The origin of separation, of that which is the basis for all fear, conflict, and violence. One cannot definitively explain such fear as singular because it is always attached to an experience of self. One can only realize that fear as a projection of the self. One may realize that this base fear is continually manifested in ones relationship with existence. To understand one needs only to observe without an observer that is judging and concluding. The dissipation of this entity is the realization of awareness that is timeless. So it is understanding that is not a movement of the ego/self. It is that which exist in the moment, that which is not of time.


As the illusions of self are understood and as one develops awareness that is the silencing of the movement of thought, ones capacity to realize is increased. That capacity is the outcome of the dissipation of thoughts accumulated conflict. The conflict of confusion and violence falls away as dead leaves from a tree. The new and never before flowers as understanding and insight that is not the result of the old and has no relationship to what was. It is the peace and love of the moment, the realization of the true self, that which is beyond thought.

Where does one begin?

Through awareness one is able to reach a level of sensitivity that brings into light all the nuances of a mind that is caught in the conditioned duality of self. It is very difficult to be totally aware, because mind is preoccupied with the challenges of day to day living. If one makes an effort one will find that awareness expands as one realizes the conditioning of a mind that seeks its own continuity. One in a sense breaks down the conditioning of the old so that one may have capacity for understanding that is not an acquisition of the motivational self. It is a new understanding that has no connection to the accumulated self. The self, which is the past, cannot exist in the absolute moment, but because one is "seeking" one passes through the moment to project that which one is seeking into future time. So one is always seeking what should be and not understanding what is. As soon as one defines the moment one moves from past time to future time. One escapes into the duality of self which is time/space. In awareness that is consciousness without the self, one is experiencing the timeless, that which is absent movement as space. This consciousness is the awakened state of that which is unconditioned, the selfless. One observes without the named, the observer. This awakened state cannot be made to happen through a practice, meditation or any other method that is grounded in an entity that is seeking. That entity can only project the accumulated as image. It cannot conceive of that which is beyond self.

In awareness that is timeless one experiences an awakening. That awakening cannot be captured as memory or definition, it is in the moment experiencing of what is. It is the truth of the absolute moment in which the reality of self is revealed. The outcome of that reality is the total dissipation of the separated, and the fusion of all duality. This awakening is understanding that emanates from the unknown. That which cannot be grasped by the movement of thought. It is an understanding that is not of time. It sees through the motivations of self into the very nature of existence. One has a clarity that brings peace and harmony to all that is encountered.

Awareness brings about understanding that is outside the limitations of thought. Understanding that is without an agenda or message, it is simply the total realization of self that is mirrored in relationship. Within that realization is the possibility of the flowering of illumination. The self cannot become illuminated, because self exist as the conceptual, as thoughts separated illusion of continuity. Illumination is the outcome of a very deep understanding that is the total absence of being and non-being, that which is beyond all capacity. It is the death of all save the illuminating moment. When thought attempts to understand that which is illumination, one becomes lost in a definitive abyss. It cannot be grasped by that which is conditioned, the realm of the known. One is caught in the self created conflict of living as that which is separated, so one is confused and disintegrated. Such a mind is incapable of understanding that which is without attachment or identity.

One may separate awakening, understanding, and illumination and view them as steps to arrive at a goal or to find that which is sought. But one will only find the projected image of self. They are not the steps of a method or practice. They are of the unitary unknown. One separates in order for thought to have a reference point. But in the end when thought has grasped the illusion of the self created, then there is the dissipation of the separated and of that which separates. The cessation of all division is the realization of illumination that is not a product of psychological effort or a result of religious piety. Awareness that is timeless, that which is without the movement of self is the beginning. One must begin without the concept of a beginning, and therefore have the realization that there is nothing to be gained. There is only the "moment" in which one realizes the true self.

Creative Action

When one is totally free of all psychological attachments and the illusion of identity, one lives on a different level. One has understanding that is not of time. It is an understanding that does not involve images or conclusions. One has insight into the conditioned mind and as such one is no longer caught in the duality of thinker and thought. Ones mere presence is meditation of that which is. There is not the other as the separated, the alienated. There is only the eternal moment. Within that moment all that one has accumulated falls away as dead leaves from a tree. One is reborn from moment to moment within the timelessness of that which is the true reality of existence.

When one is free of the limitations of the accumulated self, then one moves into a state of creativity that is the outcome of the realization of the "oneness" of existence. One is no longer burdened with the need to manipulate and control. One sees through the superficiality of ones prejudiced mind and the illusion of "knowing". Creative action is the outcome of the realization of singularity, not as concept, but as living in the moment unconditioned consciousness that is absent the duality of thought. In creative action there is the freedom of the moment which is the truth and love of the unknowable, that which is beyond definition. Creative action is without agenda or purpose because the self is not interposed on the moment. It is simply the intelligence of accepting what is and of interaction with that which is the illumination of the absolute moment.
Creative action is the manifestation of understanding that is without that which is self absorbed.

One sees into the nature of the moment that reveals the hidden motivations of self that is mirrored in the relationship of what is. In the moment one has complete understanding of self, which is understanding of the other. One accepts self and in doing so accepts the other without prejudice or conclusion. In that moment one is capable of love that is without condition, love that is without the motivations of that which is seeking acknowledgement.

Creative action is the outcome of a mind that is at peace with the whole of existence. It is the dissipation of self, which is the fusion of all duality that is within. One abides in a "oneness" that transcends the conditioned consciousness. It is not a dream state, it is the reality of what is, absent that which is the conditioning of the past. One has a newness that is the experiencing of the moment and of illumination into the nature of relationship and existence.

Relationship

What is relationship? What does it mean to exist in relationship? Is relationship self determined? When one defines, one creates concept. That concept is the product of ones accumulated experience. Definition may seem universal (by way of agreement), but what of the practical nuances of actual reality. There are no definitive absolutes, so it is a matter of culture and experience. The psychological application of definition is subjective. Each individual projects his or her own contextual version of definition according to the content of the conscious mind. Thought modifies concept in order to fit circumstance as an extension of the continuity of self. While definition seems universal within a very small window of experience, in the reality of the moment, it is totally without relevancy. The moment requires the new, not the definition of the past, which is the continuity of the old. It is understanding that is fresh, new and without the baggage of opinion and conclusion. Opinion and conclusion represent the concflict of the self. When one applys the old to the new, ones understanding is tainted. It is a modification of the accumulated and conflicted self as projected into the moment.


Relationship is the outcome of the interaction of the projected self with that which exist outside the self. Thought has no control over relationship. The self may try to manipulate relationship to fit needs and to satisfy appetites, but in the end one only creates an atmosphere of fear and insecurity. Relationship mirrors the true self. But in order for one to realize the true self one must be capable of looking without the self. The separated cannot realize the truth of relationship in the moment. It can only project its opinion and conclusion. One must be silently aware, so that one can look without the accumulated self, without that which is conditioned. In that absolute moment thought realizes its own movement, which is a simultaneous dissipation of self, of that which is concluding. Within the moment of this realization is understanding of truth. Seeing directly without the movement of self. One realizes truth that is not a movement of time.


Relationship is an intelligence that operates outside the influence of the self absorbed. Relationship always tells the truth. It tells us what we are and where we a going. If one has the capacity to observe then one can see truth in all that is. The inanimate as well as the sentient. Because we exist in relationship to all that is, to the oneness of existence, it is possible to observe truth in the moment. The truth of what one actually is. The realization of this truth is the dissipation of self, of the observer. When there is absence of that which is separated there is no imprint of self on the moment. There is no reflection of the conflict of that which is seeking the continuity of accumulation. Then relationship is not the result of cause and effect. It is the moment to moment illumination of understanding that transcends self. One lives in relationship that is without a trace of self, of that which is concluding.

One must have the realization that relationship is not an activity of the one and the many. It is the whole field of existence that mirrors the mirror. It is oneness that is the cessation of all division. It is the transcended consciousness of that which is timeless.

Intelligence of the Timeless

When thought is still, quiet, not moving, mind is in the eternal moment. It is not a practice or method, but only the outcome of true realization of the self. Direct seeing into the origin of self and into the result of that which is defined. Out of the awareness of the reality of the moment is the truth of peace and harmony, that which is untainted by thought.

As long as one is looking to exploit circumstance and personality one will forever be caught in a circle of fear and insecurity. A mind that is caught in its own conditioning cannot begin to realize truth. Such a mind can only create conflict and violence. One is not even fully aware of the subelty of the self and how one destroys the beauty of each moment. Even when one loves it is with an agenda, with conditions. One has not realized the truth of love that has no motive. So one lives in the illusion of self. A life spent in search of that which satisfys the appetites of the accumulated self. Your religion, your politics, your money are all just a projection of the greed of the self absorbed of what you actually are. One should be negating all that defines the self. One should be ridding oneself of all the baggage of the past. Instead one accumulates more and more in an attempt to find security in the idealism of the self.

One can go on living in a state of continueous conflict and project that conflict that division, that which is the reality of ones actual existence, or one can be awakenend to the truth of the moment. One must see the truth of the reality of self that is not of time of movement. It takes great passion and psychological endurance to realize the truth that is within. One has to let go of all idealogical aspects of the separated, of all that represents attachment and identity. Then it is possible for one to find true reality. Reality that exist only in the moment and is free of definition, free of the contamination of the accumulated self.

The self is time and its movement is the separated, the space between what is and what should be. Intelligence is the cessation of time/space. The timeless which is absent the movement of that which is division. Illumination is the intelligence of the timeless.

The Ending of Conceptual Time/Space

In the concept of time/space is there a unitary force that binds them together? Can time/space be understood as a single movement? As thought moves from past through present to future it creates the concept of time/space. One may differentiate between psychological time and physical time. But are they in reality separate? One observes change, that change becomes the physical manifestation of psychological time. The concept of time/space as a movement is escape from the reality of the moment. There is no such thing as change there is only changing. It is the action of the absolute moment. Change is a static ideal, it is past tense, an element that can only exist in time/space. The movement of thought as the self is time/space. The unifying element in time/space is the duality of the me and the not me. One may not comprehend through thought which is linear. The linear is marked by time/space, it is a result of thoughts perception. If the self is the illusion of thought, then time/space is part of that illusion.

The conditioned consciousness seeks repetion which can only exist in time/space. One looks for the security of similarity. The outcome of perceived similarity is the quest for conformity. Example...We "know" that the sun will come up tomorrow, the self, which is seeking security identifies with what appears to be the changeless and to ensure continuity, thought creates worship of the sun. The self as authority through time/space requires conformity from others. But some want to worship the moon, so there is conflict and violence. But all is born out of the illusion of self as the movement of time/space. One in essense seeks out that which appears not to change, in an effort to justify belief in the continuity of self.

One may not believe in religion, but one still seeks identification with that which gives definition to the self. Thought as time/space is the projection of the self through psychological accumulation. It is ones baggage. There is only attachment and identification as movement of the self through time/space. If there is an awareness of the movement of self as the defined then it is possible to end that movement as time/space. But it cannot be an activity of self which would only be a continuity of the defined. It "is" when there is aloneness of non-entity. The total dissipation of psychological individuality. Oneness that cannot be conceptually defined or become a repetition of memory as what has been or what will be.

One will ask, why realize? What is the purpose? If one has to ask the question, then one has not fully understood. There is no purpose, it is simple. The end of conceptual time/space is the end of all conflict, confusion, and violence. The cessation of the self is the end of that which is the definition of violence. The "separated" is the entity defined by the circumstance of accumulation and its continuity as the self is the beginning of all violence. One only needs the moment to moment awareness of that which is timeless, that which is without self, to realize the truth of peace and love.

A mind that is fully aware is meditative. Consciouness that is without the conditioning of that which has been. One accepts 'what is' totally and has understanding that transcends self. It is understanding that exist only in the moment. It is understanding that is absent the self as the accumulated. It is the new and never before from moment to moment. It is the dying to what has been so that there is capacity for that which is not of time. It is the illumination that which is without movement, that which is beyond knowing.