The "Search" and "Becoming"

Searching through time and for what?  What can possibly be gained by the mind that is caught in the illusion of time?  To paraphrase Einstein, "past, present and future all exist simultaneously"..."time its self is the illusion". To think that you will be something in the future that you are not in this moment is the illusion of a mind that is seeking or searching.  How do we understand the complexity of self created illusion?  Illusion that the mind is constantly embroiled in.  It is most important that we realize who we actually are and are not.  That realization is the myth of many spiritual journey's. There are endless books and speakers on "Self Realization" and even a religion founded on its ideal.

But what is missed by most people is that the very fact that you seek anything at all, is the beginning of illusion.  For the mind can only know its content.  Whatever is found, discovered or learned is "always" the creation of self.  "Self Realization" is the illusion of something searched for and found.  You cannot "become" something that you are not already.  It is the simplicity of seeing in the moment without the "one" who See's or seeks.  In reality there is nothing to be found, only the minds idealistic penchant toward creating chaos out of peace.  If the mind does nothing and is nothing then there is only peace.  This does not mean that you are an idiot with no mind.  It means that you understand beyond the self that is a conditioned "robot".  You're free of your brainwashing. The monkey brain has been understood and with that a new intelligence that understands totally the root of all fear, the self that thinks it knows.

So the reality is this, you are nothingness.  Its not a separate ideal, it is you.  You may have fame, lots of money, an important position.  But in spite of all these labels (safeguards) you are as nothing.  You may not be aware of this emptiness, this nothingness, but it is the ultimate reality.  The self and all its activities are in essence the denial of this one inescapable fact.  When the mind is no longer trying to escape this fact and realizes that the self and nothingness are one in the same then all fear dissipates.

Words, Time and Space

What are the psychological implications of naming our experiences, of creating words that define an action or circumstance?  Are we not in essence creating a past for ourselves? The memory of what was. So we relive things over and over in our minds.  We never have completely dealt with the actual moment, all we did was name and define it.  Naming helps us escape from the moment.  Because we are escaping, we are not understanding the complete significance of that moment. Understanding the self does not take time or words.  It takes action in the moment that involves an awareness that is wholly without the activity of defining and "wording".  The element of time is created by our ability to put off the moment and move into its facsimile (the illusion of memory) which interferes with the complete understanding of the "next" moment.  Perhaps a person can now see how the mind competes with its self, creating all sorts of neurosis around the memory of a perceived event. So essentially memory clouds perception.

Memory is part of one's logical mind.  It helps us to avoid danger and is part of our evolutionary experience.  But because we have not completely understood the implications of memory and the illusion of naming (defining) it is also the psychologically destructive element of a conditioned consciousness.  What would life be like if we did not allow memory (our conditioning) to interfere with our understanding of the absolute moment? The moment would not be tainted by our opinions and prejudice.  We would accept people as they are without demanding that they conform to our expectations.  And because we see the moment as it is, we are able to realize the true meaning of love.  Love without conditions, without the movement of a mind that is tethered to the ugliness of dogma and absolutes.  Thought that does not verbalize has thrown off its connection to time and space as the separation of the self and what it knows.  This intelligence that is beyond time and space has an opportunity to flourish.  And in that moment we realize that it is not "our" intelligence, but something that thought cannot touch.

Not Part of Thought

Is it possible for a person to think, to have the mind engaged in logical thought and observe, be aware of something that is not part of thought and the thinking process?  We cannot describe or define this "something" because when we do it becomes part of thought.  We are keenly and simply aware of this non-movement as a presence that is without motive.  It has no beginning or end.  It neither exist nor is it non-existent.  It is that space between words in which truth resides.  We are not talking about any "Religious", "Spiritual" or "New Age" esoteric nonsense.  We are seeing the moment as it unfolds and realizing for ourselves (without any influence from thoughts affected machinations) the truth of that moment.  Very plainly we observe without choice or judgement the fact of reality as it is.  In that moment because we are aware of the inner and outer movement of a self that is seeking to control, we encounter an uncontrived intelligence that displaces the self that thinks it knows.  What happens next?  Nothing happens.  But one understands in a different way...a new and different intelligence.  That intelligence is the new and never before which "is" only in the absolute moment.

Since we cannot capture that intelligence and put it under a microscope, a person may say that it is a mind game.  That such intelligence only exist as an illusion.  And that would be correct, because when one says intelligence, the word and all that goes with it, in your own mind, it is an illusion.  A person can only "know" illusion, one cannot "know" the reality of it.  One can only experience it in the moment.  Once the mind allows the moment to pass and become the known (which is always in the past) then illusion is the result.  Staying in the moment is intelligence that is beyond the known. If you are choicelessly and timelessly aware in the moment then...