Control

Recently it has become apparent that in the human psyche their is this relentless desire to control situations and circumstances that we may find ourselves in. The mind has opinions and conclusions about its self which are translated, projected and externalized. We object to certain behaviors based on our own desire for order as we see it. All peoples and cultures as a whole externalize beliefs. We want the world, as we see it, to conform, to a certain degree. Without control and conformity we fear the possibility of disorder and chaos. So if we want to understand this penchant we have for wanting to control and direct we need to look deep within ourselves and find understanding that goes beyond our conditioned thinking.

Essentially it must be seen and understood that the mind suffers from a neurosis of inadequacy that has been ingrained in us since birth. Even though we may be successful and prolific, deep within there is a fear of failure and of not living up to the ideal. We need to control and direct our lives so that we conform to the ideal. But in a sense we are all failures because the idealized always remains an unattainable perfection. We are loathe to accept the reality of who we actually are and so we externalize our frustration. If we cannot fully control our own internal issues then we attempt to control the external in an effort to find a psychological release. We demand conformity and want to control the other, whether it be individuals or circumstances. The problems and disorder that we see are created first within and then externalized. We have been conditioned by our neurosis of wanting and needing to control. We are unable to free ourselves because we a caught in our beliefs about what should be instead of fully understanding the reality of what is.

Seeing and understanding the reality of what is, is seeing and understanding ourselves. Because we are not separate from our observations. We are the interpretations that we see. They are our creations. The mind compares and concludes based on its conditioning, its prejudicial beliefs. The reality of the moment mirrors the truth of the one who observes. When a person begins to see and understand this whole dynamic then a new perspective may be realized. A perspective that begins to free the mind of its conditioning. To be able to look without a preconception, to look without expectation or prejudice. All the phantasy's of organized thought will dissipate in the reality of a self that is absent knowing and the known. Now something not imagined is possible. A rebirth that is the blossoming of the unconditioned, a level of intelligence that goes beyond what can be known. It is living in the simplicity of the unknown.

Spirituality

A lot of people engage in activities that are deemed "spiritual". But in order to fully understand what it means to be spiritual, a person should look carefully with awareness, directly at the self and ones motivations for seeking such a state. Many individuals may be "damaged" psychologically by events and circumstances and so they seek solace in something that allows them to escape the reality of what is. Others may use "spirituality" to create authority and develop for themselves a lifestyle of followers that seek out their spiritual advice and other "mystical and or psychic" talents. But can the truly spiritual be the result of something that is sought out of need or desire. Is not the result of our desire always the illusion of the self created? The mind creates its own world out of the content of its conditioned consciousness. It is a world of conceptual reality, the activity of knowing, the projected illusion of a self that knows. Can that which is truly spiritual be "known"? To be known means that it is a defined certainty of individual effort. Surely it is beyond thoughts ability to reason it out, to be mere concept. Yet that is what happens when mind develops an organization of effort to seek and find. The bottom line is that their is no such thing as the spiritual in terms of human thought. Their is only the illusion of ones attempt at trying to become spiritual. Whatever one thinks about the self in terms of spirituality is illusion.

The truly spiritual do not "know" that they are spiritual. They are free of the defined notion of spirituality as an accomplishment of the self that "knows". All the so called spiritual pursuits that you may be involved in are merely a form of entertainment, a distraction from the reality and truth of what is. Change is in the moment, not in the activity of a mind that is seeking the "spiritual". It is the outcome of a mind that is quiet not seeking. The chatter of a mind that wants and needs blocks the truth of the absolute moment. It sends you down a path that has no end and only creates a reliance on the illusion of conceptual spirituality. One does not find what is sought only the need for further seeking. A person is caught in the perpetual desire for peace of mind that never comes.

Undefined Freedom

The undefined freedom of the absolute moment. It cannot be sought out as an accomplishment of the religiously seeking. It only comes to you uninvited when the mind is quiet. When you have realized totally the futility of thoughts attempt to acquire the mystical, then something new and unimagined is possible. A person has to realize the nameless, as an entity that is devoid of choice and time. The duality of thinker and thought has dissipated. Their is only the truth of what is, the unconditioned mind that understands beyond comparison and conclusion.

If at all serious a person must realize the depth of their illusion. It is very difficult because we naturally want to seek, to find and experience. But as the mind experiences it conceptualizes, so "what is" becomes the projected illusion of what was. This is why negation is so important. Whatever it is that you think you know must be negated so the truth of the moment can be seen and realized. The authority of the self wants to exert its beliefs and control the moment through its organization of time/space. All the minds efforts only create illusion, a reality that is devoid of freedom and understanding. Because such a mind is narrow and without vulnerability it cannot realize its own self created manifestation. Illusion that is the result of fear as position and opposition.

Is it possible to come to a place in the mind where you are at total peace with the moment? To surrender to what is, to accept the reality of self. A state of existence that enables one to go beyond the conditioned consciousness. It can be a state of meditation that does not seek the ideal of acquiring through a practiced discipline. A person should realize the violence that is inflicted upon the psyche through a "discipline" religious or otherwise. Such practice only reinforces the illusion of a defined self image. Their is no intelligence higher than simple freedom. To let go of all that you think you are. To be without definition is to realize that which has no limitation. It is the illumination of the undivided.