The Core Realization

The mind is made very complex by layers of self illusion that are interwoven with our desire to find identification and create individuality. It is very difficult to get to the core of ones being. As a person gains insight into the various inner workings of the self other deeper layers of neurosis emerge. Self discovery on a superficial level can be had through visits to a psychologist and through therapy. But more often than not the deeper levels of ones mind, the basis for our personality and our neurosis, can only be realized by the individual. Because we are caught in our conditioning and live for repetition and conformity it is most difficult to break free and see the self as it actually is.

The first thing to realize in the immediate moment is your own illusion and how that you are trapped by the minds projection of what is known. One must begin by seeing clearly that the image of self is created by the mind that is seeking continuity. It is seeking its identity in the elements of the perceived sensual world. From this process of identification it formulates the self, the ego/entity. The self becomes attached to things and ideas that give it definition. The self becomes a positional entity that judges and concludes from a position. That position is the result of its experience and beliefs. As a positional being one is caught in the duality of I, me and its opposite, the other. The "other" is that which position seeks as the self defining, it is opposition. It becomes the conflict and violence of oppositional thought. The mind as the identity of self moves from one conflict to another. This is the essence of the dual nature of thought as the self that is caught in the movement of time.

All this may be somewhat difficult to comprehend, but clarity comes with gradual awareness of the self as the creation of thought. For one to see in the moment the reality of what is, there must be a dissipation of self as motivation that is seeking accomplishment or gratification. The truth is realized in freedom that is absent knowing and the known. One should not confuse the ideal of the known, which is ones memory, with the dissipation of the known and ones activity of knowing. Mind/thought exist in the known, it is part of ones instinct, a survival mechanism. But simple awareness of its activity allows one to move the self to the background and realize an intelligence that is not a result of the known. In the absolute moment the known has little significance and is resolutely seen as the illusion of self centered activity. When the self is negated there is unadulterated and undistorted truth. One cannot label or define truth, because "it is" and "is not" in the same moment. Because one exist in freedom that has no agenda or program, truth cannot become a symptomatic ideal of the self.

The layers of illusion fall away as one becomes more aware of the subtlety of the mind and how that it seeks to know. Observing choicelessly the minds penchant to understand through its conditioned patterns of thought. The mind is constantly modifying its image to fit the perceived realities of the moment, but that modification always reinforces its accumulated beliefs and conclusions. When one has striped away all attachments to self illusion, then it is possible to get to the core of ones being and realize the illumination of the unconditioned.