The Projection of Division

One seeks personality in the objective world. One wants to individualize existence which then becomes a reflection of ones own inner division. One may have observed how that one wants to give a personality to the external, even to inanimate objects such as cars, houses, computers etc...we name them to give them projected image. We have name, identity so we must name things in order to define. In essense one imparts a belief and understanding that is the image of self. One looks for weakness and inadequacy in the external in order to compensate for ones own feelings of insecurity. If one can discredit then one can live with ones own failings.

As human beings we are all subject to the psychological effects of separation anxiety. We have a very deep fear of being alone. It is ingrained in our psyche to be social, it is a survival mechanism that permeates every thought. We crave similarity so that we may bond and protect the image of self. We bond not only with other like individuals but also with objects that may be perceived as an extension of how we see ourselves. Automobiles, houses, property all become a reflection and projection of our insecurity.

One is caught in the activity of escaping from psychological insecurity. Ones life is consumed with the self inflicted conflict of trying to achieve and aquire. The self "is" insecurity, one is seeking definition, to be somebody, to exist as recognition. As long as one lives as the separated, the divided, then one will exist in conflict and violence. Thoughts division which is the self, seeks affirmation of its image through the external, through relationships and objects. Because one is divided and in conflict one projects that conflict outwardly. One judges, concludes and chooses
according to ones perceived image of self, which is ones division. One cannot accept the reality of what is. One must seek the ideal through that which is the self and deny the moment for ones projection of what should be. One escapes the truth through thoughts constant re-creation of the self as that which is divided. That division, which is the movement of thought as the self, is the source of all conflict and violence.


Because one is caught up in the activity of living, of becoming, one does not realize the subtlety of the conflict and division that is within. One cannot see that it permeates every thought and every activity. When one becomes aware of the this activity on a deeper level, it can be a startling revelation. One begins to realize the true self and change that is not an effort of the self, begins to take place. The human psyche is very complex and its consciousness is interwoven with many conflicting and confusing experiences. One must realize the simplicity of the moment. Awareness that is absent an experiencer. It is the beginning of an intelligence that is not of the self. The timeless, that which is unconditioned.

The Reality of True Freedom

What does it mean to be "actually" free? Is freedom an ideal or an accomplishment? Thought moves in the time bound conceptual reality of the self. The product of thought is always the continuity of the content of the conscious mind. That which is the accumulated self. When thought thinks of and visualizes freedom, it creates the idea of freedom through definition. When thought through the self creates ideological freedom it also creates its opposite, that which one is seeking to be free from. If one is aware in the moment then it is possible for one to come to the realization that freedom that is formulated by thought is also that which it seeks to be free from. They are one in the same. Freedom from something is not freedom at all but only the continuity of thoughts desire. That "something to be free from" is the illusion of self and its opposite is the continuity of that illusion. If reality is in the moment then true freedom cannot be a continuity of thought, of that which is associated with the memory of what has been.

How does one realize true freedom? True freedom is the outcome of the negation of self. Negation of that which is formulating and seeking reality as an achievement. Whatever is realized through the process of thought is the conceptual and not the reality of what is. Through logical inference thought creates a path to be followed, steps toward an end. But the end of this process is only the beginning of another process. It is the continuity of never ending conflict and resolution. Resolution that is the seed of another conflict. The self cannot seek the truth of freedom because the self is the product of the prison of its accumulation. The movement of thought through that which is the self can only project its content. The self is attached and identified with that which is its content, which is the bondage of the self absorbed.


Freedom is not the result of an activity or a state of consciousness. It is the outcome of a mind that is aware of the movement of thought and as such the dissipation of time/space as the conceptual self. Awareness of that which is the timeless. One cannot realize the true self until one has eliminated the false. The reality of true freedom is the negation of all conceptual ideology and the fusion of the duality of thinker and thought. "Oneness" is freedom that is not associated with a goal or a destination. There is no sense of achievement or gratification in freedom, it is simply the negation of the accumulated conceptual known.

True freedom is the beginning of an intelligence that is outside the known. Intelligence that cannot be defined or become the known. It is the realization of existence as it is in the absolute moment. In the absolute moment there is no movement, only that which is. It is the meditation of the timeless.

Living Life Anonymously

Why does one seek acknowledgement? One wants desperately to be somebody, to be known by accomplishment or title. The entity that is the self requires definition in order to exist, the result of which is identity. Ones identity is the enclosure of the world in which the self exist. That enclosure represents the security of knowing self as the conceptual. But the concept of self is not the reality of self. Personality craves attention, it seeks the reinforcement of belief as image. That which is the self projects image through relationship. One is looking for a confirmation of image/belief in the external.

One exist in a world of labels, we are the labeled. One wants to be known as being associated with this or that organization. This activity gives one a sense of control. That we are in command of our own destiny. One wants to be a force that needs to be dealt with. Psychologically it is the "I am me" syndrome. One seeks recognition at all cost. Identification as the basis for the insanity of self ideology. One seeks the attention of others, which may be through either unsavory behavior or through accomplishment as authority.

What is the reality of the defined, the named? When one is identified one is seeking to escape the fear of non-existence of the perceived mendacity of the masses. To be identified is to be separated. It is the illusion of the self absorbed. The named is not reality it is image through definition which is concept. If one wants reality then one must see oneself in relationship. One cannot know oneself directly one must observe the effects through relationship. Relationship mirrors the self.

If one can observe the reality of the moment and within that moment realize the true self, then it is possible to move in a totally different direction. In the fusion of the me and the not me there is the intelligence of action in the moment. The dissipation of that which is the identified, the defined as that which is named. When one moves away from identification one leaves behind all the baggage of the accumulated self. One is reborn anew from moment to moment. It is the illumination of the selfless of that which is beyond definition, beyond knowing.

This is a life of freedom, of the dissipation of becoming. One has no one to be. There is the absence of expectation as accomplishment. For the first time one is truly free and without the conflict and confusion of a world that is caught in the illusion of the named. One lives a life essentially of an anonymous nature. Life is the simplicity of creative intelligence that has no agenda. One does not need to leave footprints in the sand, one can live intelligently as though one never existed.

With the dissipation of the self, that which is named, there is realization of that which is unconditioned. It is a consciousness that is manifested through non-action and non-being. When all else is not it is. One gains insight into the illusion of the named through awareness of the movement of thought, which is the self that is caught in time/space. It is the meditation of the timeless.

Personalizing the Known

When one ponders an experience or engages another in an exchange of ideas one has a tendency to personalize. One thinks from a center of experience that is the image of self. That image represents the permanency of experience as ones identity. We personalize in order to understand through the image of self. That understanding is limited by our accumulated experience which is our point of reference. This point of reference is the content of the conditioned self. This activity is thought that comprehends from a position of knowing. The known is the security of self image. One argues to protect that image which one would like to believe is infallible or at least in the process of becoming infallible. One thinks in terms of right and wrong, good and bad. Even when one admits to fallibility one justifies that fallibility in a manner that reinforces the image of self.

The image of self is all important, it is our point of reference for comparison and conclusion. We measure life in terms of what we know. The known is the accumulated self which is seeking conformity and confirmation of belief. What one perceives as separate from self is an illusion. One can only observe through knowledge which is the self. What one actually perceives, as a movement in time, is the projection of self. It is the overlay of our own egotistical knowledge that we look through. When one observes through the self one is moving away from the truth of the moment to the pretense of what should be as the modified projection of what was.

If there exist (psychologically) a personality which thought identifies as the self, then there will always be conflict and confusion. In the separation of the me and the not me there is the conflict and the violence of division. When one is divided, one projects that division as the perceived reality of conceptual thought. It is however not reality at all but only the supposition of recollected memory organized according to ones beliefs. When we personalize the external world it becomes a challenge to the concept of self. That perceived challenge is the result of division that is the duality of thought.

If one is aware of the movement of thought as the projection of self, then it is possible to move from a state of personalizing the external through the known to a neutral state that is not a choice or conclusion. One is neither negative nor positive. One is simply "one" with what is. One may have the realization that this is the "great middle way" that Buddha spoke of. One is centered psychologically, moving neither to the right nor to the left. Consciousness that is the dissipation of right and wrong, good and evil, heaven and hell. When one is aware of the movement of thought as the duality within, one is centered on the reality of the moment. One has had full realization of the yoga of oneness, which is the dissipation of personalizing existence.

Spirituality that is devoid of Concept

What does it mean to be spiritual? Is spirituality an agenda to be promoted or a condition that is an image of self? In life one is continually seeking explanation. One wants to know so that one may live with a sense of security. One wants to feel that ones life is not just a random set of circumstances that have resulted in a consciousness of being. Existence is confusing and riddled with conflict, so one wants to find order in perceived chaos.

The mind that is seeking creates what it seeks. One may explore the teachings of those in antiquity and of those in the new age and from this formulate that which is sought. One may construct elaborate theories about the spiritual which may include 'ascended masters', 'saviors','Buddhas', and all manner of ethereal systems toward the attainment of the spiritual. But what is the true reality of all this effort? Can one define that which is not a projection of mind? Surely that which is a product of mind is only mind, whether it be a spiritual ideal or an ethereal experience.

An experience that can be defined and therefore repeated, cannot be anything but the projection of self. If one can come to the realization that one must negate any movement that precipitates an image, then one may experience that which is beyond the defined and therefore the known. One cannot 'know' what is beyond the self, one can only negate that which is illusion. When the mind is at rest not moving, in a state of 'not knowing', then it is possible to realize an intelligence that is not the product of thought. One cannot seek out this intelligence, one can only "clean out the house" so that there is capacity. One may realize or one may not realize, it is not an accomplishment of effort or a measure of piety. When "all" else is not it is.

Words and definitions like spirituality, god, buddhas, saviors, enlightenment, rebirth etc. are all loaded with the baggage of emotion and identification. They only have meaning that we give them. They are the image of our desire, the projection of that which we seek. The word is not the reality, it is the illusion of self. The negation of self is the realization of the moment, which is the illumination of that which is beyond knowing.

Thought as Movement in Opposition

What is the true nature of thought? Is there thought that is not a movement of the self? What do we mean by 'movement'? Physiologically the brain is a mass of energy producing nuerons that are electrically charged and react to stimulus as response. The developement of minds response mechanism it directly purportional to experience that is accumulated in the physical enviornment. The mind intereprets and reacts according to a pyramid of experience which is continueally being modified as other experiences are added. Psychologically the pinacle of this experience is the experiencer, the one who is identity as the one who identifies. Identification is definition, the conversion of reality into concept. Mind utilizes concept as the reality of self which enables thought as thinker to project experience or the known as predication. The self (ones identity) interprets according to ones defined experience (the known).

The movement of thought is the temporal entity that moves (psychologically) from past though present to future. Thought, the self, is caught in time and cannot move outside it. It can only understand within the limits of its accumulated experience. When thought creates the entity that performs as a projection, it assigns permanancy to its accumulated experience. This entity which is the self is the movement of this experience in time/space. One becomes the image of ones experience. One can only know through ones experience. It is the projection of self, the ideal as formulated by thought. Thought cannot comprehend reality directly, it can only project the experience of the known, which is the accumulated self. Direct experiencing of reality is the outcome of the cessation of thought and the dissipation of self. There is no experience in true reality only experiencing.


Thoughts reality, which is the idealogical self, is two demensional. It is the duality of the thinker and that which he thinks about. This separation of the me from that which is not me is the illusion of thoughts creation, the self. As an ideal there is the posit self and its opposite all that is not the self. When thought creates experiential permancy through the self, it creates the seed of its opposite. One lives in opposition to all that is not a conformity to the ideal self. Only that which is the self conforms to the self. Conformity is the result of identification and attachment to that which is becoming accumulated experience.


The movement of thought as self through time/space is opposition. That opposition is all that is the not me. This duality is the illusion of thoughts movement. There is no time/space, there is only the absolute moment. Its realization is the cessation of all opposition. If one can observe in the moment the opposition of conditioned thought as the projection of self, then it is possible to go beyond time/space to that which is the realization of the unconditioned. Consciousness that is not a movement, but a stillness that is without motive. One can have a profound realization of an intelligence that transcends all existence.

Understanding the Self

Is it possible to look at one's self objectively and have a total understanding? One must first of all determine what it means to look. Does one look through the mind that is subject to the conditional effects of its accumulation? There is an old quote, "the mind sees what it wants to see'. Mind is constantly engaged in the accumulation of knowledge which it processes according to its conditioning. It cannot do otherwise because thought is caught in the movement of time/space. Linear thought is seeking continuity and conformity. Thought in order to exist as an image of self seeks a relationship between what is and what was. The mind avoids the originality of the moment because it does not contain the projection of self that is the memory of what was.

The accumulated self is the projection of what was. It is the prejudicial identity of belief and desire. In order for one to fully realize the true self there must be freedom through the negation of what was (the known) and the subsequent cessation of thought as movement through time.
When thought is a stillness, then the one who thinks dissipates. There is direct perception that is absent the motivation of an entity that is seeking. It is consciousness that is unconditioned.

One can only realize the true self through awareness that is without the movement of thought as time. The cessation of this movement is the cessation of the mind that is formulating and seeking result. When there is no movement there is a state of awareness that transcends the conscious self. One has realization and illumination into the cause and effect relationship of thinker and thought. Absent the overlay of the conditioned self one gains insight into the workings of the mind which are not definition or concept but actual direct experiencing that is in the moment. When one realizes that the separate self is the illusion of the movement of thought through time/space, then the reality of the moment is the reality of the true self. There is no escape into the self which is the projection of what was as what is or what will be.

As illogical as it may seem one cannot understand the self through that which is the self. The accumulated and conditioned can only project its content as belief and conclusion. It cannot know its self as it actually is in the moment. When one is in the absolute moment there is no self. One can only realize truth through that which is not a movement. Timeless awareness that is the consciousness of the unconditioned.

Cessation of the Defined

What does it mean to define? When one defines what are the psychological implications? If one ceases the activity of constantly defining, is there cause and effect? When we name an object or event we give it definition. It becomes word, a point of reference. This point of reference is utilized to communicate ideas. It is language that is the expression of the commonality of perceived reality. The outcome of definition is the logic of deductive and inductive reasoning. It is the mathematics of linear thought. To define is to conclude, to have an answer, to reason out an opinion. Linear thought is caught in time, it is a movement of the temporal. There are those who have sought out what is commonly known as non-linear thought, but one questions this assumption based on the fact that one can only think of the non-linear through that which is linear. So it is still linear thought which is always of time. For there to be the non-linear there must be a cessation of the linear. Thought as movement through time must cease.

Definitive reality is a psychological interpretive. Actual reality is filtered through the experiential mind which is reasoning and assigning definition. Thought moves through psychological time away from 'actual reality' to a 'perception of actual reality'. This perception is the result of time, which is the comparison and conclusion of the known or defined. To define is to deny the reality of the moment and to move away from the truth of what is. One is seeking what should be in what was. The result of this activity is the confusion and conflict of that which does not conform to defined reality. One becomes psychologically distressed and consumed with altering actual reality to fit within the framework of perceived reality.

Thought seeks a cause and effect relationship within the defined that forms a chain of events. This activity further strengthens perceived reality. One is able to predict the outcome of an event. Thought creates the concept of defined events. Thought utilizes defined events as reference, to measure, compare and conclude. This is the state of a mind that is seeking conformity to the known. Perceived reality is conceptual in nature, it is never actual reality, it is only an approximation. The known is always past tense, it is never the true reality of the moment.

When one is no longer defining reality or naming the moment, and if one is acutely aware, a transformation begins to takes place. Thought is no longer a movement that is caught in time/space. The outcome is awareness that is timeless, without self. One observes without an observer and realizes the true reality of the moment. All that was has no meaning, there is only the eternal moment which is the cessation of the defined. When one ceases the activity of defining reality in terms of the known then one is accepting change, one is accepting what is, the new from moment to moment. One is no longer caught in time bound thought. Mind ceases the activity of seeking conclusion and opinion. One has understanding that is not a movement, but direct perception that is in the moment.

Science and Spirituality

There are many so-called spiritual personalities, priests and authority figures who have attempted to draw parallels between spiritual pursuits and scientific discovery. These are individuals that are caught in the reconciliation of effects. They are prisoners of there doctrine and dogma and seek to justify their beliefs by aligning themselves with scientific theory. Most of what they write or speak about is pure nonsense or is so far out that no one can really understand it, least of all themselves.

The truth is found in the simplicity of 'what is' not in any far fetched theory that attempts to explain that which cannot be explained. The justification of the known can only be substantiated by what is already known. It is the projection of that which is the identification and attachment of the self. One remains the same because one is looking for sameness. It is the security of that which is the confirmation of what was. Confirmation is always of the old. The new and never before, which is true reality, cannot be realized through the activity of the old. Reality is never what it was, or what it will be, it is only 'what is'.

When one tries to draw parallels between science and the unknown, then one falls into the trap of attempting to justify belief. When one is identified and attached one is in bondage of the self induced known. One lives in the illusion of ones created belief. The self (which is illusion) can never realize beyond the limitations of its belief. It is freedom from knowing and projecting that is the realization of that which has no beginning and no end.

Spiritual authority, those with title (identification) and systems of belief (attachment) know that they are on a path that leads nowhere. But they are unable to comprehend existence without the crutches of belief and identification. They have a psychological investment in a system of tradition and conformity. For them to break free would mean the denial of the known and acceptance of the destitution and uncertainty of the unknown. They prefer the illusion of self to the illumination of the unknown.

One can follow the authority of guru's and systems of spiritual practice or one can realize for oneself the truth of the moment. One can bypass all the nonsense of religion and its authority and be a light unto oneself. One can realize originality of truth in the moment that is one's own insight and not something taught by a teacher or read in a book. One must first be free of all attachment and identification. Freedom means that one is able to listen, read and have understanding that is a realization of the true self from moment to moment. One is not retaining as belief but only observing as a passing cloud, realizing 'what is' in the moment. When there is the absence of retention as belief, judgement and conclusion, there is the dissipation of conflict and violence.

Reality that is not a Continuity

Is life a continuance from one conscious moment to another? Is there a gap or space between what is and our consciousness of its existence? One lives a life of definition of knowing. One gives meaning to objects and events that are the result of our relationship with cause and effect.
We narrow existence to fit within the frame work of our experience. That experience becomes our reality. It is our security, which is the outcome of its predictability. When one experiences one is looking for continuity. We want to be able to predict events and feel a sense of security in there outcome. We make plans and expect results based on our experience. But life seldom conforms to our desires, beliefs and expectations. We are constantly modifying our perception of reality. This process is the projection of the reality of the known which is the self. The self which is conditioned to react according to its experience.

The self, the one who thinks is consciousness that is conditioned by the experience of cause and effect. The self is that which is almost totally reactive. Every action of the self is born of another action. It is because the self is seeking continuity in reality. That continuity gives one a sense of permanency and predictability (the known). But life is neither permanent nor predictable, there is only change, only the new and never before. The conflict we experience is our refusal to accept what is and to seek (psychologically) what should be which is the projection of what was.

The self is the result of thoughts movement through time/space. The one who is the outcome of past, present and future. The self then, 'is' that continuity, it is the illusion of definitive reality. It is reality that exist only as a continuity of thought. When one is totally aware of this movement then it is possible to live in the moment without the conflict and violence of the self which is seeking the known.

The dissipation of the self is the realization of the unknown and acceptance of what is. What is, is the truth of the reality of the moment. The reality of the moment is not a continuity it is the moment to moment realization of the true self and the awakening of intelligence that is the result of freedom.