The Pretense of Accumulation

When one is identified with a belief, religious or otherwise, one lives a life of pretense. One accumulates experience in order to survive. One utilizes that accumulation to interact with the material world. Its functionality is recognized and utilized as a tool for continued existence. But accumulation as an ideal is the illusion of self created projection. The projection of that which divides. That which is alienation and conflict. A clear realization of this fact is essential if one is to realize peace of mind that is not the result of the formulated and contrived. What we 'know' is not the reality of truth, it is the created illusion of the self absorbed.

Self pretense is the result of a mind that is projecting the accumulated. The accumulated is that which is organized and categorized according to one's system of belief and cognitive capacity.
Thought is seeking the ideal, that ideal represents the security of the activity of knowing, and the known. But thought itself is pretentiousness. Thought escapes into the image of self. It creates a kind of imaginary self and seeks to realize that self through the ideal of its accumulation. It requires a mind that is intensely aware to realize the subtlety of this movement. Mind is constantly occupied with its content which is manifested in the ego/self. This separated individuality is the origin of all pretense which is the state of a mind that is in conflict with the reality of the moment.

One essentially lives a life that is seeking to realize what it is not. One lives in the denial of reality of the moment. One immolates truth by escaping the moment through the projection of self. 'What is' is discarded for 'what should be'. One may think that this is not the case and may analyze oneself and arrive at the conclusion that this is not always so. It is because one is unaware of deepest layers of self that one cannot realize the subtlety of a mind that is caught in time/space. One has to 'peel' away the layers of one's conditioned consciousness in order to realize the true self.

One may realize through the meditation of timeless awareness, that one exist in the darkness of that which is the separated. It is the pretense of accumulated self. Seeing this directly through the experiencing of 'what is', that is absent the censorship of self, is the beginning of insight into the nature of true self. One may then realize freedom that is not a result, but a state of existence.