awakening and transformation

To be awake means to question. To look deeply at ones motivations. The awakened mind is in a state of consciously looking at life as it is lived in the moment. To be awake is to understand the superficiality of ones life. This understanding does not involve critical analysis. It is simply observing with awareness that is not discriminatory. Looking at yourself as you actually are. Not what you have been or what you will be. To be in the moment is very difficult. One is always referring to ones experience in order to define the present. Experience is the past, memory which can never adequately represent reality. Most of us think conceptually. The mind is conditioned by concepts that are utilized to formulate the self or ego. The self is the sum total of all experiences: of education, religious beliefs, cultural proclivities, race, political beliefs etc. This experience represents our conditioning. We view life not as it actually is but through our conditioned mind, which is constantly comparing, judging and concluding according to our beliefs and inclinations. The conditioned mind is our hallucinogenic escape from 'what is' to 'what should be'.

The conditioned mind is tethered to opinion and conclusion. As such it can only realize and interpret according to its content, which is prejudiced and always seeking affirmation of its beliefs. The awakened mind is aware of the activity of self and its alter ego conditioned thought.
This awareness must be absent of the self which is choosing and discriminating. Truth is realized in the moment, when thought has become conscious of its own true nature and ceased the activity of referencing. Then Mind can accept 'what is' in the moment without the destructive process of self promotion. The self is inner authority. It is the one who is individualized as a separate identity from the thinking process. This identity determines the nature of reality through perception and references its experience to reach conclusion. Ones identity which is its authority perceives its own special reality based on the conditioned mind. This "reality" is not "reality" at all. It is the illusion of self which is the overlay through which the "actual" is perceived. The self as authority is engaged in the destructive process of seeking continuity (preservation) of it's self and it's ideals. The process is destructive because the conformity that it seeks does not "actually" exist. The mind is engaged in psychological opposition to the not me, to that which does not conform. The result is anxiety, conflict and fear.

One may establish authority outside one's self. Outer authority is given to that which conforms to inner authority. It may take the form of a religion or a religious figure. Political ideals or nationalistic fervor. Corporate or business entities. One's spouse or significant other. The inner and outer authority influence one another. This dynamic is the insidious maker of everything that is corrupt and corruptible. It is so because the self is seeking the protection and promotion of its ideals and it's very existence, at whatever cost. The perception of threat to self as inner and outer authority sets in motion the defensive mentality. Which is not able to see the actual truth of the moment because the mind is "caught" in an endless circle of fear. This fear is the result of its attachment and identification. Authority may then be defined as the known, the conditioning of the collective as well as the individual.

One who is awakened realizes that there must be freedom from self and from authority.
Not as concept but through direct understanding, looking directly without reference, which is without comparison and conclusion. Experiencing ceases to be an activity of accumulation and retention for the purpose of adding to and defining the self. To be acutely aware of the movement of thought is to open the door to that which is not of the mind. The timeless and immeasurable, the unknowable. To experience directly without authority or concept that which has no beginning or end. To realize truth moment to moment and the flower of truth, love.


Transformation is not a process, it has no formula or path. It cannot be found in any ancient book or through the teachings of guru's, sage's, or self styled divinities. Transformation is the byproduct of a mind that is no longer seeking. It is total freedom from the known. The realization of the true self. The negation of the conceptual and the acceptance of "what is".
One must be totally alone, without hope, faith or belief. To find the peace within, with out motivation or effort. To discover that the self is really illusion. Once discovered you are never the same. To be without fear means that you are absolutely accepting of who you are and accepting of others. The competitive mind that is always concerned about what others think falls away. It is the natural outcome of a mind that is in total understanding of the self. Nothing can disturb this peace, for it is the outcome of total freedom of the unconditioned mind. Simplicity of mind is the dissipation of the conceptual, which is the prison of thought.